I actually have many fears. Ballistophobia, trypanophobia, acrophobia, algophobia, and.....I guess autophobia.

Acrophobia--fear of heights. This isn't THAT big of a problem for me, but I'm always afraid that I'm going to fall and die.

Trypanophobia--fear of needles/ injections. I know, it's kind of a given. Before, I was absolutely PETRIFIED by needles, and HATED getting vaccinations or shots of any kind. But I AM getting better about that!

Ballistophobia--in my case, it's the fear of being shot. I know that's not as common, but everyone realizes at some point that they're afraid of being shot. But for me it's different--ever since I was three, I was afraid of being shot.

Instead of having a "monster" under the bed like every other kid, I was afraid of the "bad guy" under my bed--as in a sniper. In my childhood, I would literally have nightmares EVERY SINGLE NIGHT (for YEARS in a row) that I was being tracked down and shot, but different scenarios each time. So yeah, I'm still afraid.

So pretty much my MAIN problem is algophobia--the fear of pain (clearly). I know everybody says that "Oh, I'm so terrified of pain, and blah blah blah". But I. Am literally. TERRIFIED. Of pain.....I'll go to such major extents to avoid anything painful. Which is why I hate heights, needles, being shot, the doctor and dentist, physical activity, and it's also why I become EXTREMELY uneasy around power tools. :/

But then there's autophobia......the fear of being alone....unlike the other ones, this doesn't have anything to do with pain. I don't know why, but I guess I have a deep internal fear of being abandoned. Don't get me wrong, I do like my alone time, and like to get some peace and quiet, but after a while, I just feel isolated and lonely.

And also, when I was really young (and still every now and then today) I'd have nightmares that I was trying to call out to someone--usually my mom or sister--but no matter how loud I called, they couldn't hear me, and I ended up either getting taken away or hit by a car. I actually don't understand this fear as much, or why I have it, but I'm sure it's connected to something from my past. :/

Oh gawd, sorry for the long rant.....God, I have so many problems......XP