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LadyTudor Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013   Writer
How I feel all the time/ 
angellove94 Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013   Writer
you need to eat to live! food doesnt make you fat. i think i'm fat and i'm 103lbs
soda-with-cyanide Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2011  Student General Artist
If you'll stop eating, you'll get into bigger troubles than remaining the way you are. You know? You remind me of my best friend who feels like is the end of the world if she eats a cookie or anything sweet or so. Actually you can eat anything as long as you don't eat industrial quantities, just a bite or two. Still, thin like a plank or chubby like a stuffed toy, I bet your beautiful. Besides, love isn't based on looks, but on the soul. ;) I believe you'll be strong dear. I believe.
tigget Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2011
no matter what people say, you are beautiful, don't let anyone convince you your not :heart:
Konoka-chan Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2010
ST, I know where you are. I'm there now.
I'm contradictory even asking you to eat, but please do.
I know how bad it hurts hearing those things, and thinking them about yourself.
But, like all of these comments said, nothing will change if you drink only water.
Eat a little, at least, please?
It will at least make the running a bit easier. :heart:
You're not disgusting, I promise. :hug:
CecaMire Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2010
But you're beautiful.
Yellowporsche Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
ST do something for me please? Go out with your best friends to a nice restaurant and EAT. I'm not saying you need to eat yourself silly but you'll feel better when you're full.
cloaked-life Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2010
ST, I want to hug you so badly.
Every word in this secret is exactly, EXACTLY like my teenage years.
Sun-face Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2010
Fuck them. You're better.
FoggyPebble Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2010
I F'ed up my metabolism, possibly for life, and I'm now gaining weight REALLY FAAAAST thanks to it now, from excerising all the time and barely eating. Lose AT MOST two pounds a week SO THAT YOU WON'T GET MORBIDLY OBESE NEXT TIME AROUND!!
Death-in-Crimson Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2010

i'd be your friend regardless; it's who you are that counts; the beautiful person you are on the inside as well as on the outside ...

i wish i could find the right words to make you feel a bit better, but all i can do is send a huge :hug:

and ST, we all need food, you can't starve yourself; it won't help you to lose weight, ironically you need to eat a bit in order to lose a lot ... [i saw that on a program i think (: i hope u'll be ok :heart:]
BLUE8SKY Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
NO UR NOT don't let anyone make u feel that way or till u so ...stick your tongue at them when they turn or throw a book =p :hug::hug::hug:
carvingbackbone Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2010  Student General Artist
ugh, i wishhhh i had my comment from a few secrets ago to copy and paste here, but don't have the time to find it. if anyone knows where the one with the BMI calc is,
that comment of mine is what i'm looking for.
it needs to be said here too.
Azmythera Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2010  Student General Artist
Be strong: Do eat.
gothineyeliner Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2010
For me this is such a heartwrenching secret. Not too long ago a friend confessed to me that she's Bulimic. I wish more that anything that I could convince her that the strength and courage comes in loving yourself despite what everyone says, not in starving yourself.
TinyBat Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2010
Fact: "Other People" are just big blobs of insecurity and shitty opinions. They think they are disgusting too, a person either ends up taking out on others or themselves.
Fact: Caring too much about how they treat you will only lead you away from what is important in life.

What's important in life? Find something to love. It doesn't need to be a someone, find something to really love. Also, make your mark to announce to the universe I WAS HERE!!!!!! While all those little "other people" are out there obsessing about all that is shallow and fleeting in this life you can be making history and loving in a way they can only dream about. Fat or Thin doesn't matter, even our parents can be wrong.
MucicaMacica Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2010   Photographer

I know exactly what you mean. But this isn't a solution for us.
We have to find better solution for our problems.
and ST..: Don't forget.. we LOVE you!!
XxVeroinxX Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
I've been there for 2 years ,ST, I know how you feel...
And you know what? I'm glad I got out of this.
Life doesn't get better with every loss of weight.You just get more and more disguised of your body,and more and more obssesive.You're death from the inside.

I think that the best thing is to think about your future...about your future love,future family,future job..they will not exist if you keep going this path.
The way to self confidance is through healing.This is just a matter of time untill you be so lost you won't be able to collect yourself.

I wish you all the luck in the world,ST :heart:
And you're more than invited to talk to me if you want a listener that fully understands your problem.
BoizuRabu Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
You are NOT disgusting. Anyone who says otherwise is the disgusting one. Beauty has nothing to do with weight ST, you need to know that.

Take care of yourself, get help, if you need someone to talk to note me.
DrakeZIOP Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Forget all the people that have been hating on you. Don't change just for them. They're not worth it.
And please, do eat. You don't need to exercise if you eat right.
OctoberAzriel Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
You're wrong.
IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
No you're not.
You're beautiful.
Those people are people who hate themselves and therefore said those things to you to make themselves feel better. They're nothing more than insecure bullies.
Don't hurt yourself because of what they said.
Please believe me. You are beautiful.
I promise.
FireAgainstIce Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
You're beautiful.
Not disgusting.
Please eat.
The guys and those girls are ignorant,
and have no reason to tell you who or what you are.
And your father has no right to call you a pig.
Kryana Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
It's not you who's disgusting. It's the minds and the hearts of the people that tell you you are. You're just you. :heart:
Jack-Lilac458 Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
You're beautiful.
Please see that :C
Those who don't think so don't matter. Those boys? They're douche bags.
Those girls? They're bitches.
And your father, forgive me if you love him, is a cock.
Be strong and eat.
Eating 1500 - 2000 calories a day is what your body actually needs :C Just eat the right stuff like fruits and vegetables, a sandwich. You can eat junk food in small quantities.
Weight loss comes slowly and gradually, but starving is definitely not the way.
:C Please get help from your counselor if you have one
TheFabulousMomo Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
I wish I could just hold this person's hand.
amy-katharine Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
Skeletons aren't beautiful. You are beautiful.
Maybe you could go see a nutritionist or look up healthy meals online and set up a exercise regimen. It will make you strong and sexy and thinner. You will feel good about yourself, and be able to do MORE than you can now (physically), instead of less. Not eating makes your hair fall out, it makes you grow thick body hair (almost like fur). Not sexy, right?
Rescue-Is-Possible Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
You're perfect just the way you are. You need happy food to survive.
rainbowkandy Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
believe me... its not the best thing to not eat. I've done that (and altho i lost weight) when i DID eat i gained like 5 pounds. It's no joke, it's not the best way.

Just plan out a walking/running routine for the week. Its proven if you walk everyday (for even 30 mins) that you lose weight (:
hentaibunnyinc Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
You can literally drown if you ingest nothing but water, ST. It won't make you anything but unhealthy. Just change your diet, but keep up the exercise routine (although not to the point of exhaustion). And see a counselor or something, find someone to talk to who either understands or has been there. As a fat girl who was told all the same crap growing up, trust me, people will love you for who you are, no matter your waistline.
AnnamaeTezuka Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
TryNotToSmile Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010  Student Traditional Artist
When I was little, I was extremely overweight. I understand (to a point) how you feel.
But, please eat, my dear. ^^,
namenotrequired Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010  Student Interface Designer
Please, listen to what the others have posted. It will make you so much prettier. :hug:
SoulStarforger Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
Being strong requires basic human normality. It does not include that terrible self-esteem and submissiveness you have. How do you expect to be strong when you're letting yourself be thrown under the bus? If someone loves you they won't tell you how to be or act--and if you love yourself, you won't let them tell you either. If you want to be strong, eat normally. Three moderate meals a day. Normal amounts of water. Exercise. That is the beginning to strength. Keeping yourself healthy in mind and body is strength.
blackskye13 Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
I understand... You are not disgusting. <3
Euxiom Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
Too much water is bad for the body...too much anything is, though.

Please realize that eating is not evil, and your body needs it. :( You're not disgusting! But if you really think you are, then use that to work on becoming better and healthy, not starving yourself.
BlueRavenAngel Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
ST, please, eat! I have the same problem with self image. I tought every tought you wrote, and more, I hear every possible insult, like you did or still do. But starving yourself isn't an option. It's good that you excercise, but not to the point of exhaustion. And you have to eat to have energy to excercise. It's a vicious circle.

And as for nobody loving you... that's not true. There is someone who loves you, even if you don't realise, be it your mother, father (yes, I know, he insults you. So does my mother me. Still, I know that she loves me.), siblings or your pet. You musn't believe that nobody loves you, or that you'll be alone forever. No one is perfect, because perfcetion in a human being doesn't exist. We all have flaws, some are visible, some are not. But, we all have good things, too. And you have to focus on the good things, otherwise you'll go mad. Trust me, I've been there.

If you want to talk, note me. Just... please, eat. You are not disgusting!
vampire-watermelon Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
Please eat, ST. You are not disgusting at all. Part of life is learning to come to terms with all of those bits that you don't like, we all have them, but it's not worth destroying your body.

It's so painful to watch someone fall into that mindset, whether its about appearance or due to other factors, mainly boiling down to needing control over something in their lives. When will you stop seeing fat? Once you've burned all the fat, you start to break down the muscle, and the protein. Please, if not eat, then talk to someone.
veddabredda Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Eat. You won't even burn the fat if you don't have energy to burn it with. Just eat the right things!
IhaveanAlibi Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010
No,No you're not disgusting, don't believe me? Okay then at least take my advice; Please eat it's bad if you drink only water. You're not getting proper nutrition. Lastly don't hurt yourself while exercising,have a steady pace you're comfortable with. Kay?
SomersetRaven Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
You are not disgusting but it sounds like you need to see a counsellor, good luck :hug:
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