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SamalaKatal Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
You're not alone, ST. I had 7 relatives and 3 friends die in 2 years when I was 14 and 15. What terrifies me is that I've gotten to the point where I don't even feel anything about deaths. If you feel sorrow and stress then there is much hope for you, you can still feel, and you have the dread in your heart to prevent it. I have 3 friends right off the bat that are dying, and I feel nothing over it. People say that having no emotions makes you strong, but they're wrong, ST, people like you that can actually feel will be able to survive with a new strength that will fuel their lives forever.
Gpilot06 Featured By Owner May 19, 2009  Student Digital Artist
Poor baby (not being sarcastic at all), I know exactly how you feel.

I felt invincible until high school...every year someone important to me died.
Kai69Doom Featured By Owner May 15, 2009
ST, you are not alone.
smellybunnies Featured By Owner May 15, 2009
aww thats cousin (whos younger than me) got a brain tumor last year and that was just too much to take for me in itself...losing her wouldve been so thankful she survived...ill pray for that silver lining for, ill start a hug chain :hug: hope things get better for you ST :hug:
ShallowEndings Featured By Owner May 14, 2009  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I read that and all I could think was man your strong!
Tally01 Featured By Owner May 14, 2009
you'll always go to the funerals- it's your last chance to say goodbye
Heavy-hearted Featured By Owner May 14, 2009

That sucks!
Crawling-meower Featured By Owner May 14, 2009  Student Artisan Crafter
Ouch :={ I feel you, though i never faced such a rapid chain. :hug:

And people telling you about a silver lining are usually desperately trying to feel better about themselves by dismissing or downplaying your problems.
Atuin Featured By Owner May 14, 2009

I think this has been a bad year for everyone. I almost failed all my classes this last term and I didn't have it as rough as you, I can't imagine how worse it can get. (3 grandparents in 8 months here, as well as my boyfriend's dog who was very much a member of the family)
AkemiXTara Featured By Owner May 13, 2009
I understand about that. I've had roughly 10 people die on me the past two years, one practically my husband, and my dog. You can pull through it.
peacelovechange Featured By Owner May 13, 2009
wow, that is awful, i am truly sorry for your loss...
i cant even imagine how much that has to hurt... please feel free to message me anytime, even if you just need to vent.
midorichilde Featured By Owner May 13, 2009  Student Digital Artist
:( i'm sorry
avatargirl92 Featured By Owner May 13, 2009
Amen to that.
Jedi-Gemstone Featured By Owner May 13, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm so sorry to hear of your loss ST.

I'm stuck for words I truly am, I just hope things get better for you, stay strong :glomp:
Lolitia Featured By Owner May 13, 2009
I feel you, I've lost a few family members in less than a year and some friends too *hugs* your going to be okay. I know it's pouring down like hell right now, but it'll clear. We're all here for you if you need or want to talk.
baby-filly Featured By Owner May 13, 2009   Writer
:iconhuggleplz: That's awful for you, ST. I hope things improve for you and you don't lose anyone else precious to you.
CchaoticEclipsee Featured By Owner May 13, 2009
im sorry, love...i really hope...well..idk...idk what i hope for you..i hope you can stop hurting..but that sounds kind of sorrry

life is stupid to people... <33
wolfie-geek-freak Featured By Owner May 13, 2009
:hug: I really hope things improve for you, ST. You will feel better, it may just take time.
snikkio Featured By Owner May 13, 2009
I'm sorry... :blackrose::iconloveblackplz:
writeriest Featured By Owner May 13, 2009
I can understand this must be so hard for you at the moment. But time will heal, and it will get better. Keep looking up at the stars, achieve what you can and those passed will be forever with you in your heart.

All of us here on DA are here for you xx
50procentavmig Featured By Owner May 13, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
That is really horrible, wish I could say somthing but don't know anything that would help. :hug:
Mithrethor Featured By Owner May 12, 2009  Hobbyist Photographer
Dang, ST... it's just a bad year all around, it seems. I've already had two deaths in the family this year, as well as one of my high school classmates. Neither of my maternal grandparents are likely to last the year, and I'll probably lose my 16-year-old dog soon, too.

And of course, there's also graduating into a jobless world on top of that. It's enough to make me wary of wishing for anything good until 2010.

Anyway. *hug* I'm sure there's a way through this, somehow...
ShunketsuKayto Featured By Owner May 12, 2009   Writer
Live the life that they couldn't.

Show them you love them, you miss them, by living life to it's fullest. Show death that they can't make you conform!

As little as it seems, there IS hope. I know you're sick of hearing it.
bottomofastairwell Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
losing that many friends is really hard, and i really don't think there is a silver lining to losing your friends, but i do think they would want you to be happy
GingerSpice019 Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
holy crap... I'm so sorry, ST. Six?

There may not be a silver lining - nothing good in the actual situation, but you can pull through this and live your life. And then when you're older, you can have that as inspiration for younger people who are having a hard time... /corny
KickPeach Featured By Owner May 12, 2009  Student Traditional Artist
I don't want to be a downer, but the whole "silver lining" thing is just something people tell themselves to feel better. (Freudian for any psychologists out there.)

I think, instead of hoping for karma or some sign, you should work on moving on yourself, don't just wait for it to happen.

That sounds incredibly rough, though, so I wish you the best of luck. :hug:
littopampam Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
2 years ago I lost my g-ma
a year alter aorund the same time (mothersa day) lost my great g-ma, earlier in that year my friend from back int he day died in a 36 car pile up and shes the only one tht died...
and the beginning of scool 2 years ago in sept 6 girls form my school died... there called the angels of FHS
They were ina car crash and all of them died... int he summer of that year a guy commited suicide and jumped off into the canal and died...
So many deaths... we can't ocntrol them but thing shappen for a reason yes?...
WE all get through it for yourself and always think of them
if you don't always thinkabout them...don't feel can't always keep them on your concious mind bec they'll always be there unconsiously...
ST I already like you and I hope things get better bec things always do...
ShadowNeko13 Featured By Owner May 12, 2009  Hobbyist Photographer
:hug: I can't think of anything to say, cuz I'm sure nothing would help. But we're all here for you ST. I know you'll make it. You seem like an incredibly strong person to survive even so far- I know I would have broken down a long time ago.
k-nelo Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
hho... that`s a really hard streak... :(
dcwalker Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
:hug: That sucks. When I was in middle school, I lost a cousin, grandma, grandpa, teacher and my mom's best friend. Not all in the same year, but it was a pretty full schedule of funerals anyway. Totally sucked. After a while I was pretty jaded about it, wondering who'd die next. :( I'm sorry you've had this experience.
TheDarkRoom-Photo Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
I can't imagine what you are going through. I won't promise a silver lining, because I always want to throw up when someone says "look on the bright side" when it comes to someone dying. but I do hope things get better for you.
XXsweeneysgirlXX Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
Oh my, I'm so sorry. That must be very hard.. :hug:
Xxmusic-is-lifexX Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
I am so sorry. That's way too many in a year.
You definitely deserve a break.
rebak43 Featured By Owner May 12, 2009   Photographer
oh my 6 people.
im soo sorry.
i cant imagine what that must feel like, losing one person was bad enough for me.
Fallen-Hanari Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
I'm so sorry. :hug: I've recently lost three close friends of mine as well. It hurts so much, but you have to go on. It's what they would want for you.
I hope everything gets better for you soon.
Kizzikins Featured By Owner May 12, 2009  Student General Artist
:hug: It sucks. But it does get better. Kind of. Eventually. Just keep going.
Rakakade Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
My Mom by Kimya Dawson. It probably won't help, but it's the first thing that came to mind.
RebelliousRiot Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
One of my best friends died this weekend, just home from the funeral, He's being buried tomorrow but I don't think I can say goodbye to him, I'll see him again one day I'm sure...
Tainted-Petals Featured By Owner May 12, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
I went through something similar. First two friends, then my father, then my friends mother, then another friend.

All in the span of five months.

I thought I was cursed, I withdrew and refused anyone to help me because I thought they would die..

It's a tough world, but it DOES get better...please be strong.
Tenri Featured By Owner May 12, 2009  Student Writer
My friend's going through something like this at the moment. I hope it gets better for you. :hug:
FragileReveries Featured By Owner May 12, 2009  Hobbyist Photographer
:hug: I'm sorry.
Phantom7 Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
I'm so sorry :( I do hope that silver lining happens for you. :hug:
carvingbackbone Featured By Owner May 12, 2009  Student General Artist
oh ST, i lost over six friends three years ago -- four of them were in june alone. i've lost a lot of other friends in earlier or later years too and i just feel for you SO SO badly. june is coming up and it's a month of hell for me. i'm so sooo sorry. know you're not alone; though i wish for both of us that we weren't "un-alone" in THIS.
invisiblehobo Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
LotK Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
wow... thats hard
im impressed, how is that even possible?
fillygal Featured By Owner May 12, 2009
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