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Battle in my MindEat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
I love you..
suicideHave you ever wanted to die?
That you stood in the bathroom
A knife or a razor blade in hand
Maybe a boodle of pills
And a glass of water
And you stared at the mirror
Just wishing you'd die
But then you started to think
About your mom and your dad
Your sisters and brothers
Your nephews and nieces
All of your friends
And you put down the knife or the razor blade
You put away the pills
And you walked away
Acting like nothing ever happened
But the thoughts of your family and friends
Never stay for long
Day's week's maybe months later
Your back to thinking about suicide and death
SomedaysSomedays you just want to quit
people tell you to get over it
they don't care about what you say
all they care about is their day
sometimes you feel you've lost control
stuck inside a twenty foot hole
the sun doesn't shine and you can't see
the way things are supposed to be
you better go and watch your back
cause at any time paranoia can attack
you think you know what is said
it' always stuck there inside your head
I feel like--- I have lost control of myself
no matter what I do, it's hard to trust you
after all the things you have done
you may have had your fun
but look, what you have done to me!…..
SorrowThrough sickness and health,
poorness and wealth,
real love is usually known.
But we, my dear,
share nothing but sorrow:
cry together, smile alone.
Festering in my mind
Words of reason
Words of doubt
Often not too kind
Words of sorrow
Words of joy
Safely kept confined
As long as you are blind
ConfusionLooking up to the sky to see
What will become of me
I am worthless, broken inside
After all of the different things I have tried
Sometimes I just want to fall
Feels like nothing matters at all
Sometimes I just want to cry
What does it matter if I even try?
One day you told me that was it!
That you were tired, you want to quit
Leave this place and leave this town
You lift me up, but then you hit me down
What was I supposed to say?
That everything would be okay
That everything was my fault
And I brought everything to a halt
You make me feel like I am sick
Like you pulled another trick
A hideous disease of the mind
That makes me feel left behind
You always did say, it was my time
To listen, and go to a different rhyme!
Now what am I supposed to do?
How do I make everything like new?
It still..confuses me!
UnderstandLife is full of many places
And so many different faces
Finding all the pieces is hard to do
Looking for your rightful purpose
Like a never ending circus
You wonder when your life will break through
One day you will hope to see
Everything that you can be
You scream up to the starry sky
Never understanding why
Why are you here?
When will things be clear?
Will the sun ever shine on you
And all of the things you have to do
Will you ever find that day
when things will be okay
Just ask yourself this question
When you're feeling lost
"When will I understand?"
"I have my life in my hands! "~
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