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TMNTLeoLei03 Featured By Owner May 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You can still be in the world without being of the world. Try to find someone who can accept you the way you are, and can disregard society's norms. It'll be hard, and it takes time, but I'm almost certain that someday, someone will come along. Much love to you!!
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SuscessfulLoser Featured By Owner May 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm the same way. But I've found my value. You just have to find the right people. Trust me, it's hard, and it takes a while, but it's worth it.
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Jepuisadore17 Featured By Owner May 16, 2013
Hey, guess what? You're insanely more valuable than you ever feel. When you think you're weak, there's someone you're holding up. There's someone that will need you, and you are strong enough, and you will be strong enough. Yeah, this sucks to have that. a lot.
For the anxiety, remember that you're alert to danger. My friends have warned me lots of times when something bad is brewing, because they're anxious to catch it, and me being an impulsive idiot means that they help me a lot xD
For the depression, that's hand-in-hand with the value stuff.
You are Definitely valuable.
There's lots of ways to function, and lots of people. Different people need different people.
I know people who don't need physical strength, or total agility. Whether they themselves have that or not. They need someone like..you.
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Lunatic-Blade Featured By Owner May 16, 2013  Student
Depends on the type of "value".

Emotional value is something else as a... work/money/job-value?

Someone can be emotionally attached to you, EVEN if you have trouble coping with depression and anxiety disorder.
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horohura Featured By Owner May 15, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Hanging out with outcast can help they don't care how well you function
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razzigyrl Featured By Owner May 15, 2013  Professional Artisan Crafter
Oh wow, ST. :tighthug: I really, really know that feeling. Both my sisters have MS, and I have hypothyroidism. It's so incredibly, hair-tearing-out frustrating. To remember what I used to be able to do, how well I used to be able to think, to see people around me doing things with their lives that I. JUST. CAN'T. It kills me, more than feeling like hell physically. It hurts like hell.

The only thing that I can do is to live every day as that day, as myself. Today, I lost 12 hours to sleep, lost more hair, but I read some, made some tasty food, had a conversation with my uncle. Tomorrow I may miss entirely to sleep. Next week, they may change my medication, all my hair will fall out, and I'll be even less functional than I am now. Next week, they may change my medication and I'll start to feel human again. I haven't been there yet, so I don't know. All I can do is live today as today.

Most people can't see what's wrong. They can't see the dark circles and the puffiness and the lack of coordination as anything but fat and lazy. They can't hear the intelligent person behind the slurred and stuttering speech, or the lost trains of thought.

But you know what? Fuck them with the fun side of a rake if they have no compassion for a fellow human being. I have value. You have value. And just because people can be assholes doesn't take that away.

:tighthug:

!yoJ
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nana-infinity Featured By Owner May 15, 2013
Dear ST.
It's not going to be easy. But you'll have to face it. Just be strong and keep fighting. I'm sure someone around you will listen to you. And stay by your side after you tell him everything. Until you find this person, you need to keep fighting.
Be strong!
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Tamashi88 Featured By Owner May 15, 2013
Secret Teller 13264, if you can look him up I'd suggest finding Tim Ferguson's show 'Cain and Able' or 'Carry a Big Stick' He's a comedian with MS. He might help you see that you are valuable.
I wish I could help you see that but I think Tim would be better at it.
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confidenceAlive Featured By Owner May 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You ARE valuable <3
Whether you function or not.

Here's a tip.
Forget about all the diagnoses for a minute. Just forget about them. Take some time, take a walk, enjoy life. You're so much stronger than a diagnosis <3

If you ever need someone to talk to, I'll listen. Feel free to drop me a note any time.
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RemiroQuai Featured By Owner May 15, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Nonsense, people don't have to function to be valuable. At least, not many people in my direct environment actually function.

Right now I see a talent for typography. Your secret is not only beautiful as it hints to hope (you want to be valuable), you also show part of your value in the way you present it.

Do not give up and work to become valuable enough for you to be satisfied with yourself, ST. :huggle:
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Kokorookaikasuru Featured By Owner May 14, 2013  Student General Artist
You are valuable. One of the people who I remember most fondly, learned a whole lot from, and try to model myself after is my late grandpa. He had multiple sclerosis, I can't remember him ever even being able to move his arms, but he made a huge difference in my life, and all of his other children's and grandchildren's lives.
A functioning body is not the only way you can be valuable.
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WaffleOfTheElements Featured By Owner May 14, 2013
You ARE valuable! :hug:
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Pilliez Featured By Owner May 14, 2013
My mom has MS. It's horrible. 5 years ago she would swim with me, now she can't walk, visit the bathroom, or even roll herself over in bed. Even holding a fork is impossible.

I'm so sorry, it must be so hard for you not only dealing with MS (I don't know how bad your kind is, but it's always horrible), but also with an ignorant society. Good luck.
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LonelySorceress Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Student Photographer
I have a debilitating condition too, and sadly if you can't function nobody wants you.
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jacob-reddinger Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You can still function, even with sever MS . . . on some level, you are still functioning, and you are always valuable!!
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Gatobob Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
My husband's got MS and it made him blind in an eye- but his prognosis is actually very good! There are new treatments and help coming out every day, don't imagine the worst, there's a good chance you'll be a okay!

Plus, why despair over health concerns that may affect us so far in the future when in reality we can be hit by a bus any day? You've got live every day to the fullest and make every moment count- none of us are immortal.
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XxRockFiendxX Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
you are always valuable
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XxRockFiendxX Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
=( *hug*
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:iconrambling-anthology:
Rambling-anthology Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
That's very true, but value comes in many forms. Find something that you CAN do and run with it...And I am speaking from experience. My anxiety disorder is really bad, and it took me a while to learn to work with it.

Let yourself be drawn by the strange pull of what you love, it will not lead you astray.-rumi
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Dewdrops-in-the-Gras Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
The worst is thinking you aren't valuable. You are valuable to someone, and someone out there will probably want to comfort you. Though you might have to wait, and it might be a long time, you are valuable to those who care about you. The one who got you diagnosed, they cared enough to get you diagnosed. If I actually met you, i probably would think you were valuable, as a friend. Probably one of the best, 'cus I'm sorta antisocial. So please don't think you aren't valuable.
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xpekalx Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't know much about MS, but I understand where your coming from. No-one at work knows that I have Acute Juvenile Arthritis, they just think I'm a bit lazy if I have to sit down more than others. I think it's easier that way because it's hard to understand an illness that you can't see and people can think your faking it.
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Raye89 Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
Not necessarily; sometimes it is easier to let others know you have a legitimate reason for doing what you do.

I have two male coworkers that use the restroom frequently and are in there for longer than a man should take to use the restroom. One of them has said that he has medical condition (he didn't tell me what it was, but I believe him) that he needs to address, and I am completely understanding of that.

The other one doesn't have any reason (as far as I know) to go to the bathroom so often and for such a long time. As far as I'm concerned, he's just in there texting on his phone and slacking off. I'm A LOT less tolerant of him, and I let him know it. He will ask if it's alright to use the restroom and I say absolutely not, because then he's leaving me alone to handle the high volume of customers we get, and all of his workload falls on me.

If he has a medical reason for his bathroom break that would be fine; I would be understanding and not give him a hard time; otherwise, I'm not putting up with his crap.

Obviously you're going to do what is best for yourself, but there are people who would be understanding of your situation, and sometimes it might be easier to let them know what's going on (as long as it's not too personal).
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xpekalx Featured By Owner May 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
That's really nice that you are understanding of peoples conditions, but a few people that I know, don't think the same way. Most people think that arthritis is an old peoples ailment, I'm only 24. I got picked on at school for not doing P.E because my asthma was so bad. I know I'm not in school now but some people still treat you differently, like they only see your condition not you. My boss knows that I have bad knees but doesn't know why and she let's me have a rest when I need it. That's good enough for me.
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eye0n Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i don't know you, but you are valuable to me. you've said aloud what people who appear a little "off" in the public eye can only think to themselves.
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kuramay Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
It's really unfortunate how we construct our society. Where we're judged based on how we function and how much profit we can make by the end of the day.
But I suppose it's efficient. There's really... no way around it. Maybe if we're taught to be a bit more socialist... and have that reflected in our economy system.
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VomitingSprinkles Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
My Mother has MS as well! But she successfully raised 2 children and even though she has a limp in her step, that doesn't bring her down! Don't worry hun, You can still be amazing whatever the doctors say!
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Kyvex-Ky-Windcloud Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
If people are telling you need to be function just like them(or normally) then get new people.
Because we all have our own unique function it just might take awhile (it's taken me a while)
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xXNibiNoNekoXx Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
Something that bothers me is that people really fail to realize that nobody _can function_ "perfectly".

Everybody has some problem, whether it be depression, anxiety, self-esteem, are abused emotionally and physically (by themselves or another), underlying illness (such a sclerosis, maybe cancer) and so on. Don't ever forget that nobody is perfect, even if they think they are, it's not true. Somebody has, had or will have a problem in their lifetime which will take away the "perfection" people seem to think exists. It's called life, it's what it does best.

Now on another note, to maybe lift your mood up, stem cells have just recently been turned in brain cells and transplanted into mice which healed their neurological deficits. [link] What does this mean for you? That probably in your lifetime there will be a cure for your condition. :3 Of course I'm not a doctor or scientist, but at the rate stem cell research is growing I wouldn't be surprised if one day it'd be what helps you. Don't lose hope!
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BlueHoodedHero Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
See this actually looks nice and doesn't look like it could be made in five minuets on Paint.
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TheHolesInHerShoes Featured By Owner May 14, 2013
I was thinking the same thing. Very well put together.
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Justt-K Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh wow, the last few lines really struck home. I've been struggling for years to put how it feels to have an 'invisible' disability into words, and this... this just does it.
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Sugi-chan Featured By Owner May 14, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Same for me. It's comforting to know I'm not the only one out there struggling with it too.
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Justt-K Featured By Owner May 14, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Even though it may seem like it sometimes, nobody on this planet is ever truly the 'only' one. We are never alone. It's just about finding the others.
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Calculated-Lie Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Student General Artist
I can understand this, my mother has MS, depression and Bi-polar disorder. She just hasn't let herself stop, never gives up, and laughes when people get all worried. It was terrifying for everyone in the beginning, but you can live, and be happy, no problem.
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ZombieQueen368 Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Student Filmographer
:(
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emoturtlefrk Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
lies. It's the disfunction people love.
Disfunction reminds everyone, including yourself, that we're all human

You don't have to feel any less valuable by being who you are. Even if it's not society's definition of perfect.
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limeheer Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
thats a lie. you dont have to function to be valuable. then why do parents love there disabled kids?
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:iconkuramay:
kuramay Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
Ha... tell that to employers in the job interviews. They don't care if you have a disability, if it gets in the way of your job they likely wouldn't want to hire you.
It's quite sad, but that's how the capitalist world functions.
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ReverseImaku Featured By Owner May 25, 2013  Student General Artist
this just shows how shallow they are.
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limeheer Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
yes and there is your problem. capitalism. a system build on the principal of "rich get richer and poor get poorer". in a capitalist cumunity it is all about money and if somebody doesn't earn enough money for the business then you cut them away.
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Rambling-anthology Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
That's the way this world works, unfortunately.
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:iconlimeheer:
limeheer Featured By Owner May 14, 2013
no not all of the world is capitalistic. i live in a country with a mix of communism and capitalism. the world ain't usa
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:iconrambling-anthology:
Rambling-anthology Featured By Owner May 14, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I didn't say anything about America...I've traveled, I have friends around the world. Things are like that ALL OVER.
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:iconlimeheer:
limeheer Featured By Owner May 14, 2013
nope. not in denmark
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:iconkuramay:
kuramay Featured By Owner May 26, 2013
Oh, you're Danish, no wonder... I'm slightly jealous, always felt that our government can take a few lessons from Denmark.
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MitzuSojaki Featured By Owner May 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Det er sjovt du lige nævner Danmark i denne sammenhæng, da jeg er dybt uenig i at alle er brugbare her, og landet kører da i HØJ grad på kapitalisme. Jeg har sgu ikke set meget til vores fornemme ''røde'' regering, jeg ellers havde håbet at opnå da jeg stemte. (;
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Rambling-anthology Featured By Owner May 14, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
So everything is perfect in Denmark? I can see the education is great over there.
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Rambling-anthology Featured By Owner May 14, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
And is everyone there valuable?
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limeheer Featured By Owner May 14, 2013
yep
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