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SPIKE295 Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2013  Student General Artist
My life in a nutshell :/
ARMYxARTIST Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2013  Hobbyist Filmographer
me since grade 5 this is me and still is. i dont want to do it but i think of it :l o well its okay
fey-fae-whatever Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2013
Oh my gosh this fits me perfectly...I mean, I used to feel just like that and I don't as much as I used to, but it's likely that I will feel that again since I'm going to high school after this summer vacation...
AnimeMangaArt19 Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for putting this up, it really reflects exactly how i feel. And I hope who ever wrote this knows that I stand with them every step of the way. Remember to keep your head high, smile, and know your not the only one going through this :)
Nibbler117 Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013
Hey, buddy. Don't let that get you down. Try finding someone who is almost like you (shy, quiet, alone, etc...).
And don't even think of killing yourself. As someone once said :" Suicide does not end the chances of life getting worse, suicide eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better." And besides, if you don't find any friends or if your classmates won't talk to you (but I'm sure you'll find a solution for this/those problems), you can talk to all members on deviant-art.
Hope this helped! And members of deviant-art care for you, and so does your family. Just don't ever give up, think of drinking ("drinking/alcohol isn't the answer, it only makes you forget the question" someone said) or think of committing suicide. Don't, because there are people who care for you. And as for your classmates, either they're just not used to you YET or they're just dumb and stupid bullies.Ignore their ways and treat them the way they treat you. OR, even better(maybe), treat them the way you want them to treat you. Go with the 2nd option, and if that doesn't work, go for the 1st option. And when they ask you why you're doing that, just say that that's how they treat you.
... So, enough of my blabbering. Just give it a shot.
Best of wishes, good luck, and lots of love,
Onyxpaint Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013  Hobbyist Filmographer
true. dat. :I
DazedDaisiesO-o Featured By Owner May 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I've been bullied before, and i know that what i went through won't compare with your situation, but i send you luck. don't listen to the all the bull people try to force upon you. Remember the love of your family and you'll get through this. :)
RockingHeart Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I feel the same, especially at school it's like no one want's you or need or even like you, they only to to me for their greedy selfish needs! I hate it! it make's me feel so alone!
lonewolf8986 Featured By Owner May 26, 2013
I'm 26 going on to 27 this year. I've spent the most of my life dealing with a family that did drugs, was physically abusive, and suffered through emotional trauma that I became depressed and was diagnosed as bi-polar.

Thing is I suffered with this for 14 years before I was officially diagnosed. In my earlier years I spent my time alone because I wasn't sure who I could trust. I thought I had friends, but I was paranoid that they would talk about me behind my back.

I spent years thinking I was worthless and my home situation didn't help out at all. My father ignored me, my mother was gone, and my stepmother seemed to really enjoy putting me down. There were days in which I felt I could just end it all.

But I continued to live day to day. I told myself that I would not let my situation dictate who I was. Some days were better than others. Some days having that mentality was enough.

Others, I would go to my own little world to escape my situation.

Soon, I found people who shared my point of view. Friends who understood what I was going through because they were going through it themselves. Honestly they were people who helped ground me. Allowed me to be open about what was going on on my mind without feeling like I would be persecuted.

And I found myself having better days, and opening up more to people. I took it day by day, month by month, year by year until finally one day I saw myself surrounded by people who friends, and colleagues, and mentors.

There were still days in which they were bad, but now I could share them and not feel so alone. I finally sought professional help when a friend asked me too.

I finally understand why I felt how I felt and I am doing something about it.

Through it all, I'm proud on what I accomplished and what I'm doing right now. What I want to say is, it does get better. It may seem like the world is closing in on you. It may feel like there really is no escaping your fate...


I'm not saying your problems aren't important, they are. What I'm saying is, rise to the occasion. Don't let it consume you. Live for the day and everyday try to live. Then when you least expect it, you'll come to realize that life is pretty damn good.
FallenShadow000 Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Been there since I got kicked out of college (21), and deemed unemployable due to my disability. Everyone needs a place they can run to and forget their troubles. If you can channel something from that world, and turn it into something real that people can understand: A book, a painting, a dA print, then it will serve you well.

Just try not to drown in it. I almost did, a few times...
Surviveroflove Featured By Owner May 25, 2013
This is me but my friends talk to me, then turn around an talk about me.
AterImber Featured By Owner May 25, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Sometimes I feel like this and wonder if it's strange, then I look around and realize it's just me letting myself be unguarded.
Nicki7771 Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Student General Artist
How do u know me so well... :cries:
ChaoChaoperson Featured By Owner May 18, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I feel the exact same way,
They hang out with me but just... No I don't feel like they're my friends
I sit there and cry on the inside, I wanna just punch them and then jump off a building...
I talk to my cats... Its getting that bad,
I need a friend...
ClutterCollector Featured By Owner May 17, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
From the girl who has two imaginary friends who were created to forget loneliness, I wish you happiness.
josegoncalo Featured By Owner May 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Let me tell you something, you don't want to be a friend of someone who doesn't care about you.
BlueFlameFTW Featured By Owner May 14, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I was like that, too. Then I became reclusive, never talked to anyone if I didn't have to. That went on for a while, but then, people started to come to me instead of me coming to them. I got a friend for life out of that. I recommend you stand off to the side for a while and see if anyone approaches you. It really helps you pick out the ones who care form the ones who don't. If they don't, go right up and ask them what's so bad about you. Maybe something could be resolved.
sachcell Featured By Owner May 14, 2013  Hobbyist
If you're young then that will sort itself out over time, as people mature.
Try to find people who are interested in the things you are and talk to them more. And make sure you don't push away friends you already have. :) It can be frustrating but try to get through it with patience, there will always be someone with a friendship potential.
RiRiSqueak Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Student Digital Artist
wow, that's me at school too. after the bus drops me off, sometimes I stand on the road, and think about lying down.

But I don't. I get off. I go home to my family who are there for me. Maybe its school that's hurting you. Its school, we're a lot of people feel like they don't fit in. But, if we could find those people with the same problems, you'll be surprised how many of us there are who think the same.

It's a lonely world, but there's always someone, even if its a family member.
Genevieve124 Featured By Owner May 13, 2013   General Artist the same. I walk over to the group of girls and they, stop talking, and walk away. It is sooooooo frustrating! I just want to say I KNOW YOU HATE ME SO WHY DON'T YOU JUST COME OUT AND SAY IT! But really... they only like me because I'm too nice and I am the smartest in the class I will always help them no matter what. So, even though I feel bad about this, I feel great when people have terrible things going on in their life because, for once.....I'm no longer invisible.
TNBCfer Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
don't worry that used to happen to me, I was new in school and no one really wanted to talk to me so I just told my parents about that and they helped me a lot and understood me, so I moved to another school and now I have lots of friends
xpekalx Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I feel for you ST. That always happened to me at school, the only friend I had was my younger sister. Everyone else either hated me for existing or didn't know that I existed. I even had a few fantasy worlds too, (I still do actually because I have Maladaptive Daydreaming Syndrome). But don't lose hope, life WILL get better. You have a family that loves you, so keep them close. As for making friends I can only suggest trying to reach out to other people who get ignored, I found some of the nicest people you ever wish to meet that way. Or if it's possible you could maybe get a pet, that might sound weird, but has actually helped a lot of people through depression. If you want to you can note me and I will be your friend :huugle:
lightbleueyes Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Student General Artist
I feel the same way too! ><
MelissMySiss Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
I feel like this all the time....
Axelsgirl15 Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
A lot of people did that- and still do that to me. You'll find friends soon. :) Good luck!
xXNibiNoNekoXx Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
Screw those people, the best friend you have is yourself! :3 Don't forget that! And people who are going to ignore or be rude to you are definitely not worth your time. Just keep your head up and you'll find the right people to call your friends.
Freaco13 Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
After several years of attempting to fit in, I found myself on the edge of a friendship group that consisted of kids who masked their true colours, by never telling to my face that none of them really wanted me there. No matter the circumstance, I was left out of everything and incidentally ended up with no one who wished to spend any time with me. I became increasingly sad, lonely and depressed; my only pain relief was escape into the realms of my imagination, yet every day never failed to hurt. Three years ago, I made the best decision of my life; I joined a forum devoted to a cartoon show and I found the best friends I could possibly wish for. I promise you; perhaps school is not the place where you will find your true friends, but the world is so much bigger than that. In this day and age and the blessing of the internet, the world is simply your oyster; you just need to get out there and grab it. Do not give up, it will get better, and don't let those that are making you feel miserable bring you down, because one day you will find friends who genuinely want to hear you. My best wishes go out to both you and others who feel trapped in the same situation; what you have been through already is hopefully only a small fraction of what is to come in your life, and somewhere, some place, friends will come. <:}
BlazeFireWolf1 Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Maybe not now, but one day you will find people like you believe it or not. There are more people out there than just your classmates. Opportunities to meet new people who will understand you and share interests with will present themselves to you soon enough. Just keep holding on and be patient. Best wishes.
daliutza Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
I feel the same
skygal333 Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Same thing on my end.
True friends are out there. You just need to expand your horizons and wait.
emoturtlefrk Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know how that feels :/ except my family doesn't love me. They do the same thing
SantaFeDreams Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This happend to me and it still does
I run to my land of Pokemon so I can forget my pain
SpitfiresOnIce Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I've had that situation too 2-3 years ago. It gets better, someday. But the waiting is the hardest part. :hug:
CutieDeidara Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
Hold on to the things that keep you strong!
I bet you have a great family who will always love and support you!
Rose-Eclipse Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
True friends come to you.
You just have to wait.
I was still waiting till just recently.
Firnen99 Featured By Owner May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
They are no real friends when they do that! I never had such friends but because of that I had no. That changed since I got Scout. There I have nice friends that like me just how I am. I learned to have only friends that are real friends. You will see that you'll have soon new friends :)
limeheer Featured By Owner May 13, 2013
you will get friends later in life :)
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