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CookieBloodlust Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2013
Just checking back in, to kind of add closure to this =)
I did stay with the online friend, and he's been to stay with us twice now, and I guess i'm one of the lucky ones =)
He turned out to be exactly who he said he was, and we had an amazing time both visits, he's coming again soon =)
The boyfriend who was depressed, is still pretty low, and he's deteriorated a lot, his grades are bad and he's not even trying to pretend like he cares about his future, just hopes they'll let him into the army when he's old enough so he'll have something to do. To be honest, i've been a lot happier since I broke up with him, and if that's bad, i'm sorry, but he really did drag me down when we were together. Since my current boyfriend is in University (He's just started the first year now, he's a couple of years my elder, nothing drastic though) he's been helping me study, and I recently got an A* in Biology. Our relationship is going strong, and we do argue sometimes but we always find a resolution or compromise quickly. I'm glad i posted my secret here, because the comments were very helpful and they helped me find what made me happy in the long run, because even if this relationship should someday fail, then I always have the memories of this total, serene happiness. I am so content right now. I just want to put this out there, just to thank everyone who has helped me, and to maybe give hope to others with online relationships who are going about them safely like I have. 
Thank you again, DA users =)
-Author of Secret 13135
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Daismotastico Featured By Owner May 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
As a kindergarten teacher I have to say that love is not restricted to "adults" as some people claimed in earlier posts.
I've seen couples who were younger than 3, and very much in love.
Of course the quality of their love is different; it's not about lust, and they probably would not see themselves as a "couple" - but it's very much love, and they can tell that apart from love for their parents, and liking other friends.
Claiming that young children, or even teenagers are not able to feel "proper" love, or can't tell that emotion apart from let's say affection are quite rude and foolish.
Love is a emotion that is too deep and too complex to reduce it to some aspects that you will only find between adults.
And every human being, no matter their age, can feel it.
(Which does not change the fact, that young people must be protected from the "love" of very much disgusting adults.)
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HazyConfessions Featured By Owner May 11, 2013
your young so this is a scary truth, but here it is:

The person who's opinion on anything to do with what makes you happy? Yours. sure it hurts if your family does not accept something about you, but overall you'll be happier because you're being true to yourself.
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Kca189 Featured By Owner May 6, 2013   Writer
Parents care more about your safety than your happiness. So they don't really matter, ignore them because everyone is going to have to take chances sometimes. Your depressed boyfriend? PAH! Nobody is depressed they are only lied to or goth! Break up with him. Love your online best friend? Great! Go to him!
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Si1verwing Featured By Owner May 31, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
No. That is not Goth. Goth is an actual subculture and way of life, not some bratty phase kids go through just to get attention. And for those of them that it is, that is not Goth. That is some bratty kid in want of attention. If you want to learn about the Goth subculture, look up Jillian Venters, writer of Gothic Charm School, or LeahMouse on YouTube. Or, *MistressoftheRoses here is Goth, and she can tell you more.
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iwilblood2 Featured By Owner May 8, 2013
(Depression does exist, but I agree with the rest of your post)
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GalooGameLady Featured By Owner May 6, 2013  Student Filmographer
Break it up, he doesn't need lies on top of his depression.
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CookieBloodlust Featured By Owner May 6, 2013
Glad I have a spare account now :3
Thank you for the helpful comments, when I said I know him online, my best friend has met him in real life with her parents there (who liked him) and we have skype calls :3
My parents already know about him (they dislike it,because of the age -he's 18-and distance but accept it. My mother has spoken to him and says he seems nice. And by spoken to, I mean skype calls)
And I broke up with the boyfriend, only to find that he instantly got with a girl I was friends with who already tried hitting on him. And when I say love, I already have a knowledge of what love is, if you scroll down you'll see my response to another commenter with my opinion of what love is.
I'm in a long-distance relationship with the friend now, And I am Infinity% sure he's not a creeper dw xD
I've seen his friends before, he's seen mine, met my friend and her parents, seen my parents, i've seen his mum and siblings, etc.
Thank you all for the helpful comments <3
- Author of Secret 13135
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GrubCloud Featured By Owner May 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Good on you honey :D :highfive:
Have fun ^^
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ChocolateSmarties Featured By Owner May 6, 2013  Professional Writer
True
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CrazyTarget101 Featured By Owner May 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
that heart is very true.
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Kaffen Featured By Owner May 6, 2013
Fifteen? That's quite young. You still have a long life ahead of you.
I would be careful of your "online" friend. And if your boyfriend's depressed, do the right thing. Help him out, even if you want to break up and be friends. There are millions out there for you to meet. C: If it was me, I would block the online person and forget about him. He might be a catfish or something .
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CookieBloodlust Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2013
I met up with him (with my mother ofc) and he was exactly who he said he'd be, and it was amazing =)
Even if i'm just being naive, I will always have the memories of being so happy in this time, and that's all I really  need when times get rough, to look back and see that life is a bit like a skipping rope, going up and down all of the time, from one extreme to the other, but times always get better and scars will fade. The ex-boyfriend has really dragged himself down, but he doesn't even try to help himself. We stayed friends and i've been trying to help him, but he keeps trying to copy my work in class because he's let his own grades deteriorate, which is a sad way for it to be for him. Thank you for your comment though, Kaffen, it was one of the ones that stuck in my mind a lot =)
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Kaffen Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2013
Awwe but i'm glad it went well :huggle: I hope you and your boyfriend have a happy future.
At the same time, I hope your ex picks himself up and starts working hard, I really don't know what to
say for him. :(
Originally when you said that you fell in love with someone online, I immediately thought that it was a bad
idea because so many strange people roam the internet; I'm almost sorry for being negative and
I'm relieved that it turned out well, or who knows what could of happened ? 
Well, I really don't know what to say. I just hope everything turns out well with the relationship and
hopefully with the ex. Take lots of care ;v;!

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PurpleLuverForever Featured By Owner May 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Been in a relationship with my girlfriend for 7 months now. I met her online. She lives on the other side of the world. Just be careful and make sure he's not a pedophile or something.
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Cyluho Featured By Owner May 6, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Love has nothing to do with logic... :)
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Auft Featured By Owner May 6, 2013
Dear person who wrote in this secret:
I was just thinking about posting something like this. But you know what?
IT HAS ALREADY HAPPENED.
Three years ago when I was 15, I liked a guy that was 5 years older than me, from the other side of the world.
We met. And it's not how you think it is.
It ruined a lot of things for me.
Just be careful.
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CookieBloodlust Featured By Owner May 6, 2013
Luckily, he's not quite the other side of the world, or even out of the country xD
But it's a long distance. My friend has already met him, and so have her parents :3
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Lucky978 Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Student General Artist
It's alarming to me that so many of these comments are debating whether or not a 15 year old can feel romantic love. That is utter garbage. Of course a teenager can feel love. I do agree that there is a difference between love and infatuation, and a great deal of teenagers who say they are 'in love' are actually just infatuated; however, I have seen firsthand loving relationships between teenagers that are more than just sex and hormones. pfft.

Putting that aside, you need to tell your boyfriend how you feel. It is not fair to him to keep leading him on. I understand that it is scary to consider breaking up with him if he is emotionally unstable, but you need to do it. He needs to begin the healing process.
As for the online relationship, I do not have much experience, but I can tell you that I do not know many success stories. One of my friends was in an online relationship all through high school and it absolutely killed her that she couldn't have a normal relationship with physical contact. I'm not saying that physical contact is what a relationship should be built on, but intimacy is important. It is important to realize that pursuing an online relationship might not be the healthiest route. Now I could definitely be wrong. If it is foreseeable that you two could be together sometime in the future, then maybe it is worth it. I don't know.
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Lucky978 Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Student General Artist
Oh and definitely be careful...a lot of people online are not who they claim to be! Maybe see if you can chat with him on a webcam or something to make sure he isn't a 50 year old pedophile or something :P
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CookieBloodlust Featured By Owner May 6, 2013
Done that already Lucky :3
Thank you for the help :3
And if you read my other comments, I already commented on distance and stuff =p
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Lucky978 Featured By Owner May 6, 2013  Student General Artist
:hug: I wish you the best of luck :) I read your comment above and it seems like you've got a handle on things :love:
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ookaookaooka Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I have a feeling that our generation will be much more tolerant than our parents'
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CookieBloodlust Featured By Owner May 6, 2013
I agree :3
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AlyArmadillo Featured By Owner May 5, 2013
There's nothing wrong with loving someone online, I fell in love with someone online, and it doesn't matter what others think, but what YOU think. Love doesn't care about distance, I know many people who are extremely happy with their significant other and live even countries apart.

And I do think you should tell your boyfriend, if you don't love him, it's not fair to EITHER of you to continue on as if you do. Waiting to tell him your feelings will only make it harder on both of you. You don't have to mention your best friend, just be honest about how you feel. In the long run, you'll both be happier.

Tell your parents about your online friend, unless you already have proof that they are who they claim to be, they may not be who you think. Ask for proof, and have your parents speak with them and their parents. Your safety is the first priority before anything else. <3
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CookieBloodlust Featured By Owner May 6, 2013
I have proof dw, thank you <3
Please see my post above for more explanation :3
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Alice-KnightShadow Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Student Digital Artist
i was stuck in the same place. love doesnt care how far one is,go for it. be with your bestie. break up with your boyfriend. love the love you want .all that matters is what YOU accept. love is crazy and dangours. risk it. it can be worth it.
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NonConformistFlmingo Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
The number of people in this world and in this comments section who say teenagers cannot understand love is alarming. I can tell you right now that that line of thinking is baloney, because I fell in love with my best friend when we were 12, and we maintained a very loving relationship until I was 19 and she was 20 (she's five months older than me).
Love is love, and there is no "correct age" that someone can "understand" it at because love cannot be understood. It is a complex emotion.

ST: Tell your boyfriend how you feel. Not about the other boy, of course, you don't want to uncesessarily hurt him even worse, but tell him you no longer want to be together. I understand it can be hard to break up with someone when you know it isn't mutual, but it's better for both of you in the long run.
As for your online friend... Be VERY careful. People online are not always who they seem to be. I got lucky and met my best friend online when I was 12, and he did indeed turn out to be who he said he was, and we have been friends for over 12 years now, but you might not be so lucky. I would tell your parents about him, that you have an online friend and you want them to know so that they can be sure of your safety and that you aren't talking to some creeper online. Have them speak to this boy, and ask to speak to his parents. Let them ask for some proof of identity, like school records or a birth certificate along with a photo, to be sure that he's the real thing.
Then, maybe once your parents know about this boy and are assured that he's safe, maybe they wouldn't be so against it if you eventually formed a romantic relationship with him.

That's about the best I can do, I'm sorry if I didn't help much, but that's just what I would do in your shoes. :D
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Grab-A-Glass Featured By Owner May 5, 2013   Digital Artist
bro,not trying to be a douchebag,but you cannot have a correct understanding on love at fifteen,theres a difference btween two adults in love and two teenagers in love
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CookieBloodlust Featured By Owner May 5, 2013
Pray tell, what is love if I do not understand?
From my perspective, love is a complex, beautiful emotion, formed when two people possess a bond in which they are not just lovers, but partners, and it is sustained on the basis that those people can have a future together, can support eachother and themselves, and a family if they choose to have one in later life. It's fragile and deep, and involves a lot of self sacrifice. It's about caring for someone more than yourself, which is something lots of adults haven't grasped.It's a joining of two beings, a partnership, that should span a lifetime. It's not easy or always the ideal, but it's a perfection within itself. Real, selfless love, is incredibly rare in our world, and most people are lucky to find it in a lifetime, let alone in their teens. But i'm willing to take the opportunities i've been given. Don't tell me I feel less than a 34 year old who has spent his life as a manipulative player seeking one night stands. I know love just as well, if not more, than that man. My age doesn't necessarily make me stupid.
-*Is fifteen*
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Grab-A-Glass Featured By Owner May 6, 2013   Digital Artist
Happily ever fucking after is too boring for a simple creature like you... Or rather, it's too complicated and frightening for you. You could never give up trying to see how many people you can break just to prove you're better than them; you could never admit that someone could be your equal, let alone your better.
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CookieBloodlust Featured By Owner May 6, 2013
Actually, I accept that many people are my better. And I am actually intending to devote my life to helping others, to caring for them, to love them and give them the best life possible.
Please do not insult my motives in such a way, you don't know who I am or how I think, I would never want to hurt a person, my goals in life are to help people, not break people to prove I am better, because I am not better.
I'm just a person with dreams.
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Grab-A-Glass Featured By Owner May 6, 2013   Digital Artist
then why are you trying to bash me?it was my honest opinion and you declined it completely,saying that you are trying to love everyone yet you tell me that the way i think is wrong?you are an oxymoron in the works,a paradox of your own convection,you don't try to help others,stop lying to yourself
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xitzandrewx Featured By Owner May 5, 2013
Trying not to be a jerk here, but I never find myself able to take teens seriously whenever they talk about love and the drama it causes. Honestly, you're not even an adult yet, running high on hormones, and yet you claim to have knowledge on something as complex and abstract as love.
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iheartslashers Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
So you're saying a fifteen year old cannot have complex emotions? I hate when people say something like this; sounds like you're saying fifteen year olds (or whatever the age may be) aren't even human beings.
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xitzandrewx Featured By Owner May 5, 2013
You misunderstand me. I'm not questioning whether they can FEEL it (I say yes), but whether they know it. To quote Lucky978 (above us) "I do agree that there is a difference between love and infatuation, and a great deal of teenagers who say they are 'in love' are actually just infatuated". That is what I am getting at. A lot of the time proclaimed 'love' isn't actual.
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Aramarella Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're in love. At fifteen. Right.
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AnnePrower Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
what, you don't believe that teenagers can have complex emotions?
even if this person isn't in love by your definition the hurt they have is still real
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your-guardian-angelV Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
wow what a backstabber.....
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CookieBloodlust Featured By Owner May 6, 2013
?
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FleetastheWind Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Watch out, people on the internet aren't always who they say they are.
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Dartmaul15 Featured By Owner May 5, 2013
good point there.

My advice to OP would be to not jump to conclutions, but instead await the situation and try to figure if you can trust the person.
How do you do it? Actually meeting them could work, but ALWAYS do it in a public place with lots of people, and DO NOT agree to go somewhere else.

As regarding your corrent boyfriend; i'd go easy on him, and perhaps try to get him professional help. Been depressed myself, and if his situation is true then a breakup can actually proove dangerous. so get someoen to watch over him. Some of his good friends maybe?
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CookieBloodlust Featured By Owner May 6, 2013
Best friend IRL has already met him :3
And I broke up with him, and he instantly got another girlfriend :L
Such immaturity :c
-Author of Secret 13135
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Dartmaul15 Featured By Owner May 6, 2013
Well, i daresay it couldn't have ended much better, could it?

Good to see you're happy.


Take care, and good luck in the future :)
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xLuckyxFridayx13x Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
If you don't love your boyfriend, no matter how depressed he is now, the longer you wait the harder it will be for him to let go. Tell him how you feel and hopefully that will at least work out. The online thing is a whole different ballgame that I can't really advise but I hope that that works out as well! Good luck!
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emoturtlefrk Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
being 15 doesn't matter when it comes to love. sexual activity is another thing.
Hell, i didn't fall in love for the first time until i was 13! But if you don't love your current boyfriend, and you love your online best friend, go with what your heart is telling you.
Find a way to make things work with the man who has your heart. Being in a relationship with someone you don't have feelings for is like trying to drive home in a car with no wheels or engine. it won't get you anywhere.
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FireflyFlashlight Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Student General Artist
you're 15, slow down, breath. you have time to figure things out.
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Tamara127 Featured By Owner May 5, 2013
You're only fifteen, I guess your current boyfriend is also +/- 15, you both have all of your lives in front of you. Go talk to him and tell him that you think that he's a great guy, that you want the best for him but that you don't love him (or something like that) He'll be hurt for a while, but he will be hurt more if you wait a month, half a year, a year or even longer. Besides, you won't be happy with your relationship and your boyfriend will eventually notice that too.
About the long distance thing; why don't you meet him once? Internet is always different than real life.

I wish you the best, and I hope your heart will feel better one day soon.
<3
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ZizanChan Featured By Owner May 6, 2013  Student Artist
Meeting someone who lives relatively far away can be rather difficult, actually. Especially at a young age and if the parents can't/won't help.

I know that too well, since I'm in a LDR myself for 2 years now and we haven't had the chance to meet. I'm not as young as the author of this picture, but still, I imagine for a 15yr old money has to be a problem to some degree.
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Tamara127 Featured By Owner May 6, 2013
I'm 17 and I a long distance relationship, I have no problem with the money issue.
People go from one end of the world to the other end for 30-100 dollars.
If there is a will, there is a way. But I do understand that 100 dollars might be a problem if you don't have a job next to school..
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