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“What makes it worse: I know they all love me. They've all confessed one way or another. I hate myself for this”

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Sheik91 Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013
It is a misunderstanding that love, or "true love" for that matter, has to be exclusively limited to one person only.

It is perfectly fine to love more than only one person (and what a lonely life that would be!), even in the romantic sense. It is perfectly fine to lust for other persons but the beloved one. We just have to pay close attention to the way our thoughts and feelings translate into behavior.
With that statement I am actually even talking about monogamy, though I do not resent polygamy (though personally I am not sure if I would want to live in a polygamic relationship, but that's another matter).

Comittment is not about excluding everybody else; it is about actively seeking intimacy with the other. Mutual commitment is what we usually call love. The human heart (as in, the human ability to love) is such a rich place (or ability in that other wording) that is makes no sense, even, to limit your love to one, and only one person.

You apparently have much to give (emotionally), so why should you not give it? If it is a postive feeling such as love, the world will be enriched if you share it. With all of them, and all of us.
Hippiecheese777 Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013
perhaps you need closure of some kind, if you can gather pictures of these people and destroy them. light a fire, close your eyes and tell yourself it is over with your other romances and the others will never happen. tell yourself as much as needed. then when you are ready, toss the photos into the fire and watch them burn in an attempt to get yourself to realize what's past is past.
Hippiecheese777 Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013
it could be worse, you could be heartless for all of this splitting of the heart
Dovewing34 Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Student General Artist
I feel your pain is all I can say to you but I wish I could explain more so we can see if we're on equal feelings in our hearts........
JVKIllustrations Featured By Owner May 8, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I had two long lasting relationships in the past.
The first one was, of course, the first one. It was charming to recieve a love note every two hours and to be loved and cared for for the first time. We shared a hobby, an interest and had stuff to talk about for hours. With his and my best friend, we had a wonderful little group. It was a long-distance-relationship though. When I think back I still love the attention I recieved, even though today I joke about his "weird look" and my "bad taste". I left my first relationship, because I grew tired of the attention and the trust issues.
The second one was a classmate of mine. He was my best friend, so we knew each other in good and in bad times. Things were more uncomplicated and easygoing. I needed that. I was fascinated by that boy. He was a child and mature at the same time. Sometimes I can still hear in my head the adoreable squeaky sounds he made when I called his name. I had the feeling that I experienced the real deal about love for the first time because I cared for this person's wellbeing more then I did for myself.
Sadly, he left me because he didn't "feel the butterflies anymore" and thought he's done. We had no contact for a longer time until he came back. Then we had another relationship-ish status, nothing half, nothing full but it still was a wonderful time. Half a year ago he dumped me again and kicked my feelings and wishes for his wellbeing with his feet. We haven't spoken since. I still think I love him, but in a different way.

Shortly after I told the stories to my coworker, he told me how he feels. Not about the story but about me. We're dating for three months now and it's the first time, that someone cares about me but doesn't crawl in the dirt when I'm in a bad mood. That's what I needed. The mixture of both. It fells good and it feels right. I love him very much.

Tl;dr: Don't worry, ST. Your feelings for the past relationships will dissolve and good memories will stay. Give it time and your darling will recieve your 100 percent :)
Green-dance-monkeys Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist
If you've loved someone in the past, I believe you will always love them. Though, love takes many different forms and the love you once had may not be in the same shape as the love you have for that person now. This is what I believe at least.
emoturtlefrk Featured By Owner May 4, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know exactly that feeling... I'm with my girlfriend, but i'm still in love with the man i lost my virginity to, and the first person i ever got engaged to....and also a celebrity who i love more then natural....
It doesn't feel like i'm being fair to my girl, but sometimes one just needs to go with the best choice, which for my is my girlfriend.
My ex that now has my virginity is verbally and emotionally abusive, my ex fiance is more than 5 years older than me, and obviously about the celebrity :s
PseudonymousRMY Featured By Owner May 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah, I'm having that problem now, in addition to lots more... of problems, not men, and I feels terribly insecure. Unfortunately, I don't know how to let go either, I wish I could help us, but I can't :C
Dovewing34 Featured By Owner May 4, 2013  Student General Artist
I feel your pain ...
AlixeTiir Featured By Owner May 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Not to sound silly, but maybe you can tell them all and have a giant orgy.
Gravitii-CS Featured By Owner May 4, 2013
If you want to let go of your other loves, try letting go of the smaller ones first. The ones you don't love quite as much. If the heart picture is accurate to how much you love/fantasize about the people, than I would try stopping it with the Ex, or the Friends first. Then move on to Last Romance and then Boss. Hopefully it works. Good luck~ ovo
miss-monomi Featured By Owner May 4, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I've never loved anyone, so I can't help you with that.
TGOM Featured By Owner May 4, 2013
I love only one :heart:
Tornado05 Featured By Owner May 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I know that feeling.
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