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The Secret Teller would like to thank =ftourini for the use of the image.

The Secret Teller would also like to say: "An abusive childhood, bullying and the fact that I'm manic depressive have left me strained. I don't like to bother people, I wonder if I'm just being a fool for imagining something new, that I should just be grateful I'm still alive at all."

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Nibbler117 Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2013
You have made me cry...
Don't give up hope.
XxRockFiendxX Featured By Owner May 2, 2013
Try your best! Even if your family won't be all that supportive in the beginning, maybe if they see you really care for it they'll be okay =)! and if not, try not to subject yourself to JUST their expectations...i know how painful that can be. I am happy that at the beginning you had said your not afraid like you used to be though. Don't let their expectations put a fear in you. Do your best =)!
sophie-stands-tall Featured By Owner May 1, 2013
always try i feel the same always...
La-Nee Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
There are plenty of amateur drama societies in need of new actors. If you're sure you'll do great, why not proof it by doing instead of telling others?
Mooki-Blaylock Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Professional General Artist
big thanks to everyone for your comments and support! I was going through some dark times when I wrote this secret and it's good to know so many of you care! :w00t:
crazy4christj Featured By Owner May 2, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
I'm really glad you're better now :)

There's always going to be these ups and downs in life, but you can always pull through :D
Mooki-Blaylock Featured By Owner May 2, 2013  Professional General Artist
it has been going a lot better since I joined the nation of islam
crazy4christj Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer

But those guys are scary :iconscaredplz:
ChantalIZ Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Student General Artist
Honestly, it's easier to fill a mold of expectations than to ever break it.

The problem with that is, it's not usually you creating the mold. </3
RokkerAngel Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
My walls just broke one night. I let it go, and the voices arent mean, scary or anything. They help. Just keep an open mind and listen, dont act on the things you know are wrong. Just know, the walls might have broken for a reason.
jackie777 Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013
The walls... they let people like us to feel a bit less hurt. We build them BECAUSE we are that much afraid of pain.
And by building them we keep people in distance from us anyway.

I know how it hurts when you're surrounded by thick walls that no one even tries to get through and this desire to shout out what you really want and who you really are. I know this pain when you know that everyone will laugh at you, or detest you, or tell you it's impossible because of reasons.

I can tell you one thing. This is your life. Not theirs. If they can't open their minds enough to let this through, then you don't have to mind them at all. If you do, you'll let this opportunity slip and you'll regret it for the rest of your life. That's not fair. We do not separate ourselves from pain just to be controlled by other people. We are not weak. We are not stupid. We're just afraid.
Go on. This is your life. Do with it whatever it suits you.
TiteArumi Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh God. I know this impression ! I know what it is to try to... Be someone again.
Don't be afraid. The first step is always the most difficult. I know it is. And yes, the next steps will be hard too. But that is how life is, and everybody derserves to know what it is to be happy, to be himself. So I hope you'll have the best sooner :D
teodoraboros Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I had this problem too. you just have to start over and find yourself some friends that like you for who you are, and will support you with whatever you want to accomplish. You're never alone
5Qui99L3 Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I think I know how you feel, at least a bit. I see a bit of myself in your artist comment. Now, thankfully I haven't been abused, and I don't know whether I'm manic depressive or not (I might be, my mom is), but not wanting to bother people, thinking oneself foolish for having dreams and wanting to "be someone" for once... I know that.

I second what confidenceAlive said, I couldn't have phrased it better. It's great that you've overcome your fear and pain. I don't know who you are, but this makes me really happy for you. Now go for it, stand up, show them what you can do. The best thing in pulling against expectations is exceeding them, and I'm sure you will. (:
confidenceAlive Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
It's okay to be cautious. Trust in the people around you has to be built. But don't be afraid to do things differently than they expect; it might be difficult for them to see a different you than what they always saw, but they will accept who you are -- and don't be afraid to be who you are, because who you are, is beautiful <3
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