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realitychecks Featured By Owner May 15, 2013
that caught my eye!
i have also noticed all my life i was never alone, ever. it is not me. it says the opposite things to me. it has saved my life many times. probably not the reply you wanted.
SycrosD4 Featured By Owner May 14, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I know that story.
TheArtOfCats Featured By Owner May 11, 2013  Student General Artist
I have 3 actually, two good ones and one bad one, but the bad one is just as bad as yours... I think that's why I have two good voices. I've grown so attached to the good ones that I've named them.
CaptainAwesometastic Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist
Mine are all so nice to me. They figure out my problems for me and figure out my friends' problems for me. I've got a friend who has the kind of person described here though, and it's doing a lot of damage to my friend.
Demyx-gurl-Xia Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013
I've got one too. Not quite as extreme, but it's there. When something in my life hurts it tells me to shut up. There's people with problems worse than mine and I should be happy to have what I do, but it still hurts. It's hard, but you just have to ignore it. You have to look at your reflection and say "I AM beautiful and I AM strong! I am not useless!" Everything negative thing it says, counter it! Make that little imp shut it's face right up. It'll be difficult? Oh hell yes. It'll be one of the hardest things to do, but it'll be worth it in the end.

Personally, I think this little deamon is a personification of the things society tells us about ourselves. It's engrained in our brains since birth so it'll never really go away, but we can at least put some headphones in and ignore the little sucker or at least make our voices louder than its. On a side note, I would suggest listening to the song In My Mind my Amanda Palmer. It's something I listen to when the imp starts chittering.
camiwolf09 Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Then just look in the mirror and say "SHUT THE F**** UP. NOW."
If it doesn't, you know what they say:
"Treat others as they treat you."
That means, either just ignore it, or look in the mirrior again and start insulting it.
It's just there to insult you.
You KNOW you have people who love you, and that you are perfect the way you are.
Say that no one sees it, and that your the one who has an awesome life, not it.
luckymewpony Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2013
I have the same thing. It won't stop either.
asbestos-kid Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2013
You may have paranoia. Get help.

Or you may be overexaggerating. If you are overexaggerating, please calm your tits and have an ice cream.
mikr3000 Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2013
so after reading a few comments this particular "secret" is not really a secret
everyone has that judgmental "voice" but the real secret is that the voice
only has the power that you let it have. it wont go away untill you have
stop listening to it. its not as hard as you think :sleep:
locomotive111 Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I hate that voice.
ForgottenFears Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2013
Wow. Other people have that voice to? Didn't know that. I know it's hard to ignore it but you have to. You can't live your life for that voice, you can only live your life for you.
corbius Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013
Ignore the presence. Since it's not a positive force in your life - it doesn't love you or encourage you to become better in any way - you don't have to pay any attention to it. Sounds like it feeds on your attention span; who's the attention whore now? Ignore this parasite and focus on the positive things in life. Be confident and stop questioning yourself so much. Doesn't matter what anyone else thinks about you and your choices in life - unless they love and support you. There will always be haters in life. You can't have positive examples without them.
DemonDarakna Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student
Girl, you are describing the same shit thing I had. Or have. (+ suicidal and selfharm tendencies) I managed to shut it up, only speaking out when I'm PMSing.
Listen, I don't know what it is. I call it Ahriman, the demon. It probably has something to do with chemicals in your body. Strange mix or sth.
Trust me, I don't want to say that to you - hell, if I didn't have someone push me there, I wouldn't go near that building - but go visit a shrink. You can try with group thing, it 'kinda' worked for me, for a time. They can either make you feel better about yourself, or worse. You'll get even stronger swings, but fewer.
In the end I resorted to antidepressants. I tried EVERYTHING else before going up to the doctor and just saying that I should get the pills. I had to either get better, or lose my one and only true friend, because HE couldn't take it anymore and he has a history with people with mental problems.
Now, I must say that I'm glad I took that step. After around 3 weeks of sleeping (pills do that to you, every time you worry you become terribly sleepy) and little else, there was silence in my head for the first time in my life. It freaked me out at first, and I advise you to hang around people at that time to not shock your mind too much (just sit on the edge of the group. Try to make them NOT talk about you, unless you want to speak out your heart to someone (if you feel the need to - I did it surprisingly many times to people that don't even know me that well, it just felt good to share)). After that, I started healing.
Now, I'm a proud owner of a true EGO, something I never had. I fight for myself. I wash away every criticism from others with a little more than a shrug. I feel energetic and ready to do stuff. Stuff that I'm not good at yet, but I'm getting better.
The thing still tries to talk sometimes, but I just mentally bitch-slap it, tell it to shut it and it actually does.
So, I have experience. If you need any more information, you can note me, no problem ^^
Hope you nail the thing's tongue to a post*
dosh0 Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013
get some mental help
somebodyoranybody Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
First of all do you really hear voices? I donīt want to judge you, itīs an honest question. Because if so you should go somewere else were people have the knowledge and the metods to really help you.
If youīre just not happy with your life/yourself, there are ways out of that.
Check your friends, do you feel comftable around them?
Check your moral standarts, maybe your goals unrealisticly high?
Check your Internet use, maybe something ore some people here make you feel this way?
Start new things! Try something you always wanted but never did and people are not as judging as you may believe. You have a way worse image of yourself than others do!
HeavenlyClouds Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
this is exactly how I feel
PiliBilli Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Well that hit right on my heart. I feel the exact same way. Seriously... Tears can't stop.
LilFred Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013
Voices like this one are COWARDS. Talk about it with someone else, and it will run away to hide as soon as it can.
If it's a persistent one, it will try to convince you not to talk, or everyone will think you're a depressed and insane... Don't mind it: it's just trying to defend itself. Go on with no fear, we are on your side!

Good luck! :heart:
ff6celes Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
That kind of sounds like how I feel around a cretain someone I have issues with. Maybe someone you've been around made you feel like that? If there is someone like that, maybe you would feel better to get away from them. And/or maybe being around people that like you would help. Not that that's easy.

I know it's not always easy to get away from people that trouble you, or be with people that make you happy. But if either of those things are issues, maybe in solving those, it could help solve your secret.
Jethrayne Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You probably won't see this , but worth a shot. And if not for you then perhaps for someone else in need. [link] Why not try this instead? DA will not help you.
axslayer33 Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
if only this was reddit so this could be upvoted to the top
LilliCosplayer Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013
The voice is just trying to make you believe whatever it says but, you have the power to control what you want to think and do its your mind your soul and heart don't think all those negative thought you are special and human we all cry everyone of us, You are not beautiful your gorgeous in all eyes so every time it comes to you don't listen to it you know you don't have to it just wants attention from you that's why it dose this. I dont care what anybody says negativly about these questions , Ask it " why wont you leave me alone?" "Who are you to tell me who i am?" Because you know yourself then anyone else dose!
TheaFlyrh Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Be stronger than the voice. Maybe its hard, but just ignore it if you can. :) Hope it gets better! :3
deisakufan101 Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013
You need to show that voice who is boss! Your you and it has no right to change you! If it doesn't like it, then it can just leave! You will win!
koterre Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Oh, babe, I wish I could make it stop. I hope all of the voices of the those who love and support you finally chase it away and destroy it.
AkikiraTsukami Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
But thats a lie.... Because I love you. And I always will.
I will be here for whoever needs it.
Sigma-Echo-Seven Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Student Writer
There's already a webcomic with this premise. It's called "Ava's demon." [link]
Celia94 Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey, I looked to the link because fuck, I was curious, and what I've found, well... IS AWESOME. I wanted to thank you for sharing this, although when you advance a bit in the story you see that Ava's demon doesn't actually matches with the case the man/woman tell us in this secret
Sigma-Echo-Seven Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2013  Student Writer
What I was trying to illustrate is that I don't see complaining for the sake of complaining as productive. Everyone hurts. Everyone suffers. No one is special in that regard. But if you go out and do something with that pain, if you create something new from your suffering, like a painting, or a drawing, or a poem, or a story, or a song, or a webcomic, then you have accomplished something worthwhile. There's a definite difference between going "She doesn't love me. PITY ME YOU ANONYMOUS FOOLS!" which achieves nothing, and going "She doesn't love me, so I wrote this song about how I feel, would you like to listen to it?" and affecting the world a little bit with your art. Therein lies the value, I think; not in submitting your whiny post to a pity party on DA. (At least this one was semi-artistic with the font.)
Celia94 Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I could also help him/her with the problem, sometimes trying to 'transform' all that negativity in something beautiful helps you to fight it ^^
dummees Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
While that's a very interesting comic that I appreciate you posting (because now I'm very interested in the story) I don't think the point of this was to take the idea??
I mean by saying 'already' you kind of make it sound like having your conscience constantly beat you down is copyrighted, haha.
ArtofDezzy Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013
I know how you feel dear, I have felt like that before
Omes299 Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i think you forgot about the part where it wants to see you and your loved ones harmed, how it wants to laugh at all the pain you go through, and how it thinks of different, more painful ways of harming someone every day.
HectorAdame Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Here is something you could use: [link]

All joke aside, it would be your subconscious talking.
There is always a part of ourselves, in EVERYONE, very deep in our minds, that just doesn't like who we are; someone or some-thing that's always on the negative side of everything we do and it always comes after you've seen or experienced something specific.
Your job is to find that certain something that triggers that voice, avoid it or confront it and then it'll be off. I recomend looking for a psychologist in case you choose to confront that specific something.
txteclipse Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Posting something like this in a place like dA probably won't get you a whole lot of help. This basically sounds like self-esteem problems. Everyone goes through them at some point, some more so than others. What I'd recommend is opening up to people you know you can trust. Isolation can wreck you, and not just for this kind of problem. Trust me, I've been there. People aren't meant to struggle alone.
DubstepCat Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You're NOT useless and don't let ANYONE tell you so!
Nakumah Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
quit trying to appease it. Instead, starve it until it can crave no more.
Gabuchibi Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
This is exactly me. I do it with me all the time, and i can' stop
cskadoz Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013   General Artist
so . . . you know my dad?
sandeeshark Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I got put on medication because of it. Don't pay it too much attention or I promise I WILL control your life. Even then it won't be happy
sweetoreo Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you know those voices need to be quiet. everyone who says that you are useless are wrong.
tehFatMan Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Student Interface Designer
I don't want to be an attention whore, so I made this text box and posted it on deviantart to get attention.
Makes sense.
puppyhowler Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist
that's sort of like my brothers...
simply-awesome Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
True! It's always there!
HHHEEEYYY Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Calling me an attention whore for sharing problems or crying? I feel ya.
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