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Alberthein1 Featured By Owner May 1, 2013
The sad thing is, we don't know enough to help - if that is what you sought by opening comments.
I can't say if calling you parents is a good idea; I don't know them.
I can't say if talking to your husband - who knows, ex-husband by now? - can help you.
I don't know if you got anyone who can help you.

All I know, is that there are always many options for living, and it's up to you to sort down all you have - all you memories, all your love, hate, favourites and detestables - and find what you know will work. From there, you choose the thing you like most and build a good fundament if you don't already have one.
However, I don't know your standing, I don't know you and I certainly don't completely understand your situation, so I'm might as well be shooting blanks. I hope it helps however.
Because sometimes, it's the blanks that bring the smile. Not the "bad guy" falling down.
dawgman52 Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013
change back, be who you really are, start again to be you once more.
IndigoSkyes Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Start small. Call up someone who loves you back home, and talk to them. It may help a lot more than you'd think. It sucks to be so unhappy, but there are people who love you and want to help you out. Good luck. :heart:
Fuzzymotor Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I bet it all, that one tiny call to the parents...and they would rescue you! I am sure they are missing you...go back, and start over. My sister day, she got on a plane and let him-and let everything, except the clothes on her back, back there in that miserable place.
Nienosaur Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
"A place is only as good as the people in it", right? So I guess you should find a good place with good people to start with. :)

The best of luck!
xKrittterz Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Sithspawn109 Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
think of what you like, what you you don't like. try different things for a day, do things you wouldn't normally do, places you go to places you avoid, go to a place you would normally avoid. the more things you do and try the more you learn. read and watch tv, what do you watch and read, watch and read things you normally wouldn't. pay attention to your dreams, when you wake up what do you remember, how do you feel. what do you want to do with your life, when you are ninety and in a rest home what sort of life would you have liked to have lived, what would you like to have accomplished in your life.

sorry too much maybe, good luck and enjoy XD
EntrancingAlchemy Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
maybe what you did seemed right at that time. we change constantly and the thinks we want change too. take time to listen to your inner voice, try to meditate maybe, try to get to know yourself. i wish you good luck
xEarthWolf2x Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Sometimes the biggest clue is knowing what you are not.
stealthpassion Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013
Your secret really touched a nerve with me, I'm sat here crying. I hope everything works out for you, be strong you will get through this :-) xx
MadHatterEvo Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013
Well, first you need to know what it means to be a 'You'. How do you define a person? When you break down all of what makes an individual a 'You', you see that a 'You' simply isn't without everything. I know this is kind of confusing, but bare with me.

Don't try to find 'You' first, and then go from there. That would be like trying to undo all the mistakes you already made. Instead, just be far more open to experiences and opportunities that become present. Especially those that you feel you will not enjoy. You'd be pleasantly surprised how many things you can do that sound odd or unpleasant, but you end up enjoying them. And if you don't enjoy it, you don't have to do it again. But it still becomes a piece of 'You'. The 'You' you start building today will not even be the final design, because we are always changing who we are. Simply put, look at your 10-year-old self. If you can see a mirror image of yourself now, you are either still 10, or have somehow become locked in a time stasis in which the rest of the world cannot interact with you. Most likely, you will see a part of him in 'You', and most likely a part of your parents as well. Heck, you should also see parts of your friends in 'You'.

Basically, 'You' is always changing and trying to find it is far more difficult than letting 'You' find you.
DpShadowOn Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Don't you think if it's meant to be it will be.? Maybe it's better that your life is like this. If it haven't been like this, think, something would've happened, and it could've been the worst.
Finding yourself.. Everybody has his own method, you need to find yourselfs. But remember that You are You no matter what. Even changed, you are still You.
It will be fine.
PullItApart Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013
Well, you are where you are, and you're there for a reason. This is all an important learning curve for you. Changing for the wrong reasons is good, because you learn, you find out what's important to you, or at the very least, whats not important to you. Move along.
JigglyPuffBall Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Student General Artist
I feel like I do that exact thing and I'm only at the beginning of my life...
darkangelkiss Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013
Even the wrong reasons, were reasons you as a person decided to take. Maybe you should stop doubting yourself, don't forget that every path we take in life, every experience we have makes us the person we are today. If anything happened differently, you would be different as well. And I know it's hard to deal with the image you want yourself to be, but that's just an ego you created of yourself in your mind. You are who you are, and once you accept that, you can live your life, day by day. And do the things you love, instead of doing the things you think you're ought to do, you think you're ought to be, and trying to live up to someone else's expectations...
CoyoteDove Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Look inside yourself, take a trip someplace by yourself. Some place either you know you've liked to go to in the past or someplace you're interested in going. look at your past and remember what you used to like to do, eat, see, etc and do those things. Don't listen to what other people think of you and look in your soul.
RougeCerberus Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You could always start from scratch. Every one is a piece of art, different is many ways, similar in others. But we all had to start somewhere. Maybe this is where you peal away the old paint and put on a fresh coat.
quaneta Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
try to step back.. stepping back can also lead you one step closer to the end. life is a maze...
Marqueza Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013
Maybe you should do something for the 'right reasons'. Adopt an animal, volunteer somewhere, answer another secret teller, something like that.
CahjesaalLesou-n Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013   Writer
Try to define what is you. What do you like? How do you act (towards friends, strangers, enemies, family)? What are your dreams, for what do you thrive? Any philosophy of life? [You could also consider doing a profile like you do with original charcters to reinforce their characteristics.]
Try to find pleasure, peace and reassurance of you in things you like. Figure out why you like what, what appeals to you from them.
Try to tell someone personally. Talk about this. Sometimes you only get to know what the essence of your saying is, if you just start talking along.

Do something - anything - for the right reasons.
Nayan123434 Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Well when I lost myself, I just made that the real me, and I've been finding more and more of my real self as I go along.
KalineReine Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Professional Writer
I did something like that before... No matter where you run to, or how far... Your problems always have a funny way of catching up with you.
Schnee-Fee Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Student Filmographer
Start with defining who you are, and then see what works from there.

@ the DAS Helpers: The images are getting tinier and tinier. I had to zoom in to be able to read it! Do you think you can fix this issue? Thanks.
DeviantArtSecret Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013
We submit them in the original format they come in. It displays fine, readable, on my (small) screen. I am not sure what the problem is but I'll forward it to the rest of DAS.

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Schnee-Fee Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Student Filmographer
Alright, thank you.
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