Sometimes I just feel like buying and painting a mask that covers my whole face,putting on a hoodie,taking a kitchen knife and visit some people XD

This is me in so many ways but I can't snap for the fear of hurting my friends.

-snickers- i was the good girl until four years ago. Now she's long dead and gone.


~i was sick of being the smart goody-two-shoes all the time who everyone hated and no one would notice if i dropped of the face of the earth. so i metaphorically killed my old self and completly changed who i was. if i could, i'd even have completly changed my DNA so i could truly be a brand new person; but technology isn't that far advanced yet .-.

Don't let yourself snap in two; save that for whatever is controlling you. You need that anger you have; more importantly you need to direct it effectively.

Hmm I am a good girl myself but I use my food, or other things to use my choices. And art, no one can really stop you from art if only in your head.

What you're talking about is going from one end of the social spectrum (submission) to the other (narcissism). Narcissism (=extreme egotism, complete disregard of others/their well-being and catering only to the self) being among the most common self-defense mechanisms that spring up due to submissive abuse (eople in your immediate environment acting in a narcissistic way, i.e. disrespecting/disregarding your opinions and needs in favor of theirs). It's basically a vicious circle of victim-perpetrator-victim (narcissist-submissive-narcissist).

Both extremes are negative, in the sense that they have negative repercussions to both yourself and the people you love/care for. They are also negative for society as a whole (see vicious circle I described above).

Solution=Limits

You need to have a good, long chat with yourself and determine what you really want/need for yourself as person, your goals and aspirations, regardless of social norms, other people's expectations and your own fears/insecurities.

Inform your immediate environment of your limits and set boundaries. You don't have to be aggressive about it, discuss it and remain firm in your wishes and opinions, regardless of whether they share your views or not. In short, say YES when you really mean it/want to do it and NO when you don't. Then proceed to act upon your wishes and make real choices about your life, that are dictated by YOU.

Remain steadfast in your choices, but also take responsibility for your actions. You will always make mistakes, but you will learn from them only if you chose them in the first place, through your free will. Not if someone else decides and directs your life. Remember that discussion and advice by the people we love is helpful (and at times imperative) to our lives, but beyond that as adults we have the right to chose our path and own our mistakes. It's part of maturing as human beings.
Listening to advice and accepting help does not mean being obedient and submissive. A person deserves RESPECT, as much as he is obliged to offer it to others. It's a two-way street called EQUALITY. You should not allow people to trample your limits (mind, feelings, body), no matter how much you love, respect and admire them. In turn, you should respect theirs as well.

What we all lack, in essence, is self-esteem. We don't believe we are good/mature/intelligent/wise enough to know what we want or what is good for us. This happens in part, because we are brought up to believe it and then in turn try to control others (mostly our families), when the roles are reversed. Consider dynamics of parent-child, boss-worker, state-citizen. This power play defines our society.

To break out of it in a healthy, non-catastrophic way and heal up, one needs to discover themselves, accept their good points and limits, believe in their abilities, appreciate their own value and worth, then share them with the world. In essence, one needs to MATURE.

There is an in between. Go somewhere by yourself for an afternoon. A day. A week. Do what you want to do. There is a middle ground that might lead you to a better life.

That is exactly me! Sit up straight. Napkin in your lap. Say please and thank you. What are you doing out of bed it's 8:00 you should be asleep by now! They won't even let me read certain books, movies I can't even have a phone! I'm old enough! And this IS really me. Sometime I want to tell people to shut the f*** up and..... a few other things.

Everyone needs to stop being mean. That's why the comments were shut off for every secret in the first place. These aren't made just so that you can bash them and make fun of these people. Most of you wouldn't say a damn word if the person admitted this to you face-to-face.


If you have nothing nice to say, just stay quiet.