Innocence (73)Tired of mumbling when they mention your name-
Desperate, longing, to simply be sane.
Want to be free, to dance with the wind
No longer thinking what we had was sin.
Used to be open, carefree and young
Long before we knew how love truly stung.
Now so broken with patches and scars,
Thinking this plan has never been ours.
Sure there's a reason for every small tear,
But gratitude is something you will not find here.
Give it some time, let memories build up
Don't think about all the days now corrupt.
Oh to be innocent like I once was,
To answer my questions with words like "Because"
Without having to worry about things in the past...
Not really wondering how long we would last.
ClingyI know I'm clingy.
I'm know I'm needy.
I'm so afraid to let you go.
So afraid that if I do you'll leave.
So afraid you'll abandon me.
I'm afraid that you'll let me go.
Afraid to be alone.
I hold onto you so tight.
I crush your hand with grapping fingers.
Scared that if I let you go you'll disappear.
Scared to loosen my grip and lose you.
Scared I'll fall into eternal darkness.
Into despair and you'll be to far gone to care.
So I'm sorry.
Sorry I hold on so tight.
Sorry I hold with all my might.
I'm sorry I'm weak.
I know it's foolish.
To be afraid.
To be scared.
So I'm sorry.
I just don't want to lose.
The one thing, the only thing that's important.
I don't want to lose.
You my love.
Essay from an AspieHi there friends! Have you ever woken up with a sudden bolt of inspiration in your brain? That happened to me just recently. I rolled out of bed at the crack of noon and the first thought in my head was that I wanted to write about something very personal to me: Asperger's Syndrome. It's something I've had to live with for my entire life, so I thought it be a good idea to share what I know with anyone who wishes to take the time to learn, and tell a few stories of how Asperger's has influenced my life. First off though, I think I should answer the obvious question of "What is Asperger's Syndrome?"
Well, to put it simply, Asperger's Syndrome is an autism spectrum disorder that causes a decent array of symptoms. It presents itself through awkwardness in socializing, tics, a preference for strict routines and rituals, difficulty reading emotions and social cues, obsessions, and coordination problems. Despite all this, those afflicted with Asperger's Syndrome tend to have average to well a
To Fathers and The FatherlessIs there a special bond between a father and his child?
A bond so strong that nothing can truly separate them?
Not even years of being apart?
Or miles upon miles of land and sea?
I know of such a child...
whoose dad left her many years ago.
She has no memory of every seeing him face to face...
Yet she misses him so.
She has faith in him,
and is willing to forgive him,
for leaving her when she was just a babe.
She does not truly know this man,
who she has been told is her dad.
But deep within her heart she longs for him.
She longs for his love and care and affection.
She longs for his acceptance.
She longs for a father.
What makes a child miss someone,
she never truly had?
Or long for someone,
she never truly knew?
Is there an invisible bond...
that holds the two together...?
Over one and a half decades has passed,
yet the child still wants her father.
Now more than ever.
Is it just, or really, a special bond?
Or rather something much deeper?
Something that extends past race, colour, re
AttractionI try to
Hide the emotions I feel
When Im with you.
Try to pretend that
My eyes arent beginning to wander,
Tracing along your body.
Like a moth to a flame,
I just want to get closer.
My body seems to
Crave for yours.
Like a young girl
Needs her favourite little doll.
She cant handle it being taken away,
Only her heart doesnt beat as fast
As mine does when it's close
I just cant control this
That fills my mind.
This absolute desire
I have for you.
Im a puzzle,
With a missing piece.
That missing piece is you.