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Kuro-Kitsune-sama Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Student Writer
I fear driving too, but my fear is weird cause im not good with people. everytime im in a car learning to drive and a person pulls up behind me i curse and fumble for the blinker and pull over. my hands shake so much the person next to me has to drive home... sadly for me not getting my liscens isnt an option because i need it to get a job. :/
LaCocaine Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i have too much anxiety to drive. i get freaked out by the thought of an ambulance coming with its sirens, and not knowing what to do, and everyone going crazy at me, or even the thought of parking and scratching someone else's car.

everytime my boyfriend drives away, i'm scared i won't ever see him again.
Kaylianaa Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2012
I'm terrified of driving for absolutely nooo reason~ I just feel like I'll be a terrible driver and crash and die.

Though I guess I wouldn't mind dying :shrug:
Balkito-Starstist Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Im 29 and I dont drive... Scared of killing someone or getting killed and I wouldnt know what to do... crashing on the road, the trucks the speedway, the buses on the street, to get lost... I know being an adult that doesnt drive its seen like the guy from the movie 40 years old virgin... but I had lots of family problems when I was a teen and the minor subject of importance to me than driving... I was In a few crashes and that didnt help much
Luvstruck3 Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2012
I have problems of my own and I always thought mabye if I see a psychologist it will help my fear, but in reality the only thing you can do is forget, the'll help you with that or do somthing else I'm sure but no matter what you will never be able to completly forget somthing that tramatic, so if somthing happens to trigger your memory everything before was useless, my advice, just keep looking and find your own method to deal with it cause sometimes thats all you can do.
KaulitzWolf Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2012   Writer
It's not too late for you to change those feelings ST. My grandfather is a psychologist and I asked him what he would recommend to help you, he suggested that you should seek therapy if you can afford it. It may not entirely eradicate this fear, but it could make this easier for you and help you move beyond it.
swisidniak Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2012  Student General Artist
I'm in a similar position. Though I myself have never been in a really accident. I'm 20 and terrified to drive. It's necessary because I live out in the middle of nowhere and can't get a job because I have no transportation. But I'm afraid to drive myself. It's not so much that the cars scare me, its the other drivers. If I were alone on a road I think it'd be fine.

My house is on a busy intersection and when I was in 3rd grade there was a huge crash. I remember hearing it and leaving my neighbors house to see minivan and (I believe it was a station wagon but it was so long ago) flipped over. There was a lot of fire, and seven people involved. The brakes on the minivan coming down the hill gave out and they collided head on with a car coming into town. I don't know if everyone was okay, I was just a kid and no one would tell me.

I used to have a swingset out in our front yard, but one day a car plowed through our front lawn. A bunch of drunk teens. They quickly backed out and drove up, tearing up our garden, fence and hedges. If I had been outside playing at the time, I could've died. Dad moved the swingset to the other side of the house that year.

I almost was tempted to learn, and then my best friend's brother survived a car crash last year. As he stepped out of his truck another car swung around the corner and hit him, killing him instantly.

My mom is 50 and she still doesn't have her license. My dad is the only driver in my family. If he isn't around I have no way to get to appointments. I've had to miss multiple things because he couldn't take me. It's annoying. The rest of my family keeps telling me to not be like my mother, however everything else makes me want to drive less and less.
Shining-Galaxy Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Aw :( My mom and dad were in a car accident back in 2002/2003. It was snowing out pretty badly, couldn't really see in front of them, my dad (who was on vacation at the time) drove over some black ice, hit the back end of another van, both vehicles did a couple 360's before landing in the ditch, no one got hurt.

Dad, who is a very experienced truck driver--he wasn't driving the truck when this happened, our van got totaled--gets extremely nervous when he has to go out onto the road in that kind of whether. I get nervous during storms, more cautious than anything, but if need be, I drive when my dad's not on the road...even if he is a backseat driver ^^;

So sorry that it happened to you, but think of it this way, You're all still here with us :D And that's what matters most.
Breakaway13 Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2012  Student General Artist
aw. i'm sorry :( you know, i don't like to talk about it, but a few years ago me and my brother lost our mother to an accident. though, it was a car accident and had to do with drinking and driving... later when i turned 16, i was TERRIFIED to drive because i thought it might happen to me...though i don't drink, which that's one of the main reasons why i don't even when people try to get me to....i'm 20 now. I can understand how you must feel about that... scary... :/ but i then realized i can't live my life in fear...and i guess sometimes you gotta go with whatever happens, happens. sometimes i still get really nervous driving at times... but maybe try talking to someone close to you about it?
Hawk-Moth Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Student Writer
I sort of feel like this when it comes to driving. My brother was in a terrible accident during new years. He was drunk and drove my mother's car into a river. He could have died but somehow he came out of it with only a few scratches from clawing up the the bank from the water. I don't ever want to in a position like that because I feel my luck is terrible. I know how to drive, I've taken a class but I still don't have a license. I intend to try for my license before this time next year. No one knows about this, and I intend to ever let them on to how I feel.
JadeKrystal Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Student General Artist
I got into 2 accidents 2 weeks apart. That put me off driving for a long, long time. However, I still had to drive (there is no bus to my uni) and eventually I got more comfortable. Now I'm usually alright driving, but I HATE being the passenger because I am not in control.

There is a high chance you can best this and manage your fear, if it's what you really, really want. It's never too late.

However, don't worry about not being normal because you're afraid to drive. There are many people out there who don't drive because they've had bad experiences or are afraid to. You are not alone and there are always options.

If you want to talk, I'm here~
Rose-Songstress Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm 23 years old, and I'm afraid to drive as well. For me it's no secret though, almost everyone I know knows that I'm afraid. For me it was a crash when I was 6. We were turning left and hit by someone who ran a red light. My mom's arm was shattered and there was an imprint of where my sister was sitting, even though she was perfectly fine. It's the most vivid memory I have, and while I don't have nightmares about it anymore, and haven't in so long I can't remember having ever dreamed about it, I do still have flashbacks.

I have driven but not enough to get my licence. The fear hasn't gone away, and I don't know if it ever will, but just trying has been making it easier, a little. Whether I'm driving or I'm a passenger every time we get close to an accident I freak because I flash back to the old accident. And when we're turning left I get nervous if I'm sitting on the passenger side. But I'm trying too.
aprilmarie4203 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012
3 days after I turned 16 I had a lot of (mostly second hand) traumatic experiences regarding cars. the first was actually 3 days after I turned 16. I was so excited to learn how to drive and then one of my best friends died in a car crash near my house. Her boyfriend was driving. a month and 3 days later another girl that I knew through friends died in a car crash. a month and 3 days later another girl that I knew through friends died in a car crash. a month-ish later my head almost went through the windshield of my mum's van. All the crashes were drunk drivers. One of the girls was coming back from visiting her dying grandma in the hospital. It took until I was 20 for me to get my license. I still hate driving. I do it because it is necessary not because I want to. And it freaks me the hell out when I wind up between two big rigs(18 wheelers, the really big trucks) and can't speed up or really slow down. And I drive a small car. Plus I've also flipped my car not even a year after I started driving(lesson learned don't drive when you're exhausted and haven't had sleep in almost 48 hours no matter how late it is and how much you need to get home when you have to drive 50 miles). And I've had someone side swipe me and take out my entire passenger side and hit me hard enough that they almost sent me into the center divider(and that one was 4 years ago right after I learned to drive a manual transmission car). If you can, try and seek out help from a psychologist. It might do you a lot of help.
x8SukiChan8x Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Three or four weeks after I got my license and was driving by myself, I got into an accident. I was going through a green light and an elderly woman turned into the intersection and hit my back left. It spun me around to face oncoming traffic and blew out my tire. My boyfriend was in the car with me when it happened, and both of us (and the elderly woman who caused the accident) didn't get hurt.

After that accident, I promised myself that I would always be the better driver. To always look before changing lanes or turning into an intersection, to always let people around me if they feel like I'm not driving fast enough for them, such things like that. We can't control what other people do on the roads, but we can at least do our best not to be those who cause accidents. Public transportation is also different, I would probably never ride a bus again after such a thing even if it's more expensive to have your own car. At least I would know that I was in control, and that makes me feel much better than when someone else is driving.

This also means no texting or talking on the phone while driving. I can't stand it when I see someone doing that, and if I happen to stop at a red light next to a person I saw doing one of those things, I seriously feel like getting out of my car and giving them a piece of my mind. I have no patience for people who do that and I scold my friends for it. There are blue tooths for a reason. If they just can't be away from their phone enough time to drive somewhere, they can get a cheapo blue tooth like mine and use that. If they can't afford it, that sucks, but they need to harden up and resist their phone until they get to their destination, or park somewhere.
sunkissin Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
To be honest.. I'd be worried if you WEREN'T affected by the crash. That sounds pretty damn normal to me - and horrible. :/ I wouldn't want to drive either (I don't anyway so I'm really not normal xD) even though i've never been in a situation like that. Is it too late to talk to a psychologist about it? Maybe it's not too late?
roburpluma Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
While I may have been in a different situation, I think the overarching theme is universal: When something happens to you that is traumatic and jarring, and scars you in ways that you never want to address again, the idea or possibility of putting yourself in an environment that puts you back there seems insane. And so, we get a lot of unconfronted or unresolved feelings that build up, and make us react the way we do. The only way I was able to overcome my problem was by addressing it every day until it didn't hurt so bad any more. It took a lot of time, and it was scary, and there were days I wanted to give up and cry in bed, but I didn't. And now, when I go back into that situation, I'm still reminded of what happened(because those things never go away), but it's become a faded memory, or a worn piece of fabric. It doesn't strike fear in me anymore, but I remember when it did.

If you are able to talk to a psychologist or a counselor of any kind right now, I would recommend it. They should be able to at least help you figure out yourself. But most importantly, believe in yourself, and know that others believe in you. And if you don't think someone believes in you, know that I do, because I believe everyone has the power to overcome obstacles.

I really do hope you get better. I'll remember your story well.
Twisted-Pretzels Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I've also had experiences with car accidents, and deaths involved... I wish I could be normal and want to drive, but I cry when I even think of it. :/
elphieofkiamoko Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I was recently in a really bad accident. Both my mom and I walked away. Not driving isn't really an option for me, because I drive a lot for my job. Mostly, I'm okay.

But I still get that shudder every time a car gets close to the lane divider, or turns into my lane (or even sometimes the lane next to me. Some things, you just can't "get over". :hug:

(And the Autopia cars are on tracks. It's a totally different thing, hehe)
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