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On the other hand, if you are a teen right now, all that hormonal crap that is making you doubt yourself and your guilt will loosen up later on. Maybe you do have that gift. Maybe when you're in college or right after college, you'll feel that way again because you'll be done with the hardest part.
Am I making any sense?
I myself thought I was meant to be a Catholic nun, I stayed with my church's convent and did everything I thought I was supposed to do, but in the end I realized I was doing it because I felt it was an "easy way out" or my own life. I wasn't choosing a life of abstinence because I really wanted to be a nun, or because I thought I should wait till marriage, I was doing it to protect myself from people. My path went in crazy zig zags for a really long time, down paths of Paganism (which I still adore), I was even close to being an atheist for a little while after everything...but then I sat down to read the Bible again, and now after years of being lost or just confused and angry...I'm converting to a whole new religion I never thought I would respect let alone feel so at home with...married...and ready to start a family.
My point is, don't do what you think G-d wants from you. Allow G-d to show you your true path, and walk it no matter how hard it is for you to wrap you head around the plan that's been made out for you. It may mean forgetting everything you've ever known and accepting new life practices, it may mean you're exactly where you need to be. Only you can decipher the choices. Good luck ST, you'll figure it all out as long as you keep your heart open.
But I don't really care about it. I just don't want this person to feel bad.
Just sayin'
Anyway, I think I understand this. I have absolutely no interest in relationships or sex, but I think God wants to lead me into a life where I'm married and have a family. It terrifies me, completely terrifies me, but I know God really wants this, and I'm coming to terms with that.
But yeah, God will help and guide you to wherever you have to be. Trust Him.
That aside- I can't say I'm religious, but perhaps your God has some plan or another for you that you can't fully predict... or maybe he's willing to let you make your own choices in life and whatever happened was his way of telling you to stop doing something just to try to please him. He's given you a life- go live it.
I don't think any God would be upset if you change your way to live.
Also, believe it or not, but not everyone wants to have sex. Perhaps asking a Catholic priest (or Cardinal or Father or whatever; I dunno, I'm Protestant