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Deviousness `anmari has been spreading her infectious positivity throughout our community for over 6 years. Throughout this time Ana has been at the core of all things devious, passionately developing an eclectic gallery, helping organise devmeets, participating in chat events and also recently completed dedicating her time as a Community Volunteer. We are absolutely delighted to bestow the Deviousness Award for May 2013 to `anmari, congratulations! Read More
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Sta.sh
For almost a year I felt horrible. I didn't like him, but I didn't have the balls to say it.
He was already depressed, and I was terrified that if I broke up with him, he'd commit suicide. (I'm a bit melodramatic)
Instead of facing him, I grew cold and distant. I started lashing out at him, and felt horrible about it, but I always felt so irritable around him, I couldn't help it. I already had trouble sleeping, but the guilt made it worse.
Finally he asked me if I actually loved him. I said
no
and we broke up. I still felt bad for stringing him on like that, but I felt better without all of that stress weighing down on me.
.
And then the next year, I did it again, with a different boy.
Wash, rinse, repeat.
After breaking up with him, I made promise to myself that I wouldn't do the same thing again.
.
I am still friends with both boys, and though our relationship is a bit awkward, it's still a friendship. We don't hate each other, which is a huge relief.
I'm not sure if this is going to do any good, but I really hope that it helps you make the right decision, whatever that is.
A choice like this is hard, and there is no knowing what is the wrong or right decision.
Either way you choose, someone's going to get a little bit bruised, but if you handle the situation right, all injuries will be minor. All wounds will heal.
It's important that you don't embarrass him, like if you said you didn't like him in front of a large crowd of people.
It also might be good to make sure that none of his relatives or pets have died or something like that, because i was always scared I would pick the wrong moment to say that i didn't like him, and it would just add to his pain.
Actually, ignore that last paragraph. It was stupid rambling.
The best thing you can do, I think, is pick a day. Tell yourself, that is the day I will break up with him. Promise yourself you'll go through with it. Don't break that promise. Find a quiet place, away from other people,(a library would be good). And then tell him.
That's the best you can do.
And about the whole "not living past 30"... That's a common thought going through highschoolers' minds. It will pass.
I know its never easy to be on this end, but do what's right for you. Explain how you feel and that you aren't interested. I've been on both ends, and the honesty was always more appreciated than the lies.
Good luck with whatever you decide to do.