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:iconmusiclight:
Musiclight Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2015
it's just a really tough time for your social skills, but maybe people like you feel alone cause you are busy protecting yourselves from possible equals.
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agulhinha Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Funny how some of you assume it is a first world problem and stuff. Maybe the most basic thing in life is being social in your ambient. But still there are people who find it difficult. This is the " hardness" of life for them. Just so afraid of what someone will think about them. A mind is a prison too. Even if she finds a hobbie to fulfill her time without memories of friends she will have a boring life. An entire life will be living on fiction and dreams, not real stories.
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TheDragonPrincess Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013
Have you considered the possibility you might be autistic?
Don't get me wrong, I don't mean it in a bad way!
I myself have Aspergers Syndrome, and often have difficulty with other people as well, as if I'm not one of them. Which, mentally and emotionally speaking, I'm not.

Anyway, live long and prosper! =)
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Skyzhema Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I have the same thing. I just spaz out when people get near me, and if someone hugs me I have panic attacks sometimes. Nothing else is different...
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Cinder254 Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2013  Student General Artist
I'm an open believer that humans are not always humans for I speak from experience, walk-ins, star seeds, paranormals, They all play part in a daily life, and much of the time they don't notice that they are different until they find themselves in this situation. Take heart you will learn who you are :D human or not.
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KittyWolfInc Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow. I finally found someone who shares my beleif ^~^
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:iconcinder254:
Cinder254 Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2013  Student General Artist
Do tell :D  I have been doing my best to find others who believe this for a while, do you believe you are human? And thank you so much for the watch as well :) 
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KittyWolfInc Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Your very welcome for the watch, and thank you for the watch as well.

And no I personally do not beleive my self to be human, though that does not mean that I think of myself higher then humans. ^ • ^

So do you believe that you are human?
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Cinder254 Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2013  Student General Artist
     That is a wonderful philosophy! definitely keep that up :) as for your question no I am most definitely not a human lol I am an interdimentional dragon, sent here my my master to gather information on humanity and help their society gain balance, but as I live here I have noticed that he sent me more so for me to learn about myself, it is a looooong story that I will gladly tell, but overall my true name is Yun'Ra which is dragonics for "The Young Sun," overall I have different gifts from it but it is also hard because this fleshy form is painful for my large spirit to live within, but I make do and love life ^^ How about you, what do you think you are? (and sorry for the long response, I've been getting ready for school and all that jaz, getting back to work lol)
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KittyWolfInc Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Well as my profile name implies I am a half breed :3
A kittywolf to be exact, and an extremely fluffy one at that. And I would love to hear your story, ^~^
And I understand how it's hard to be in a human body
>,...,< My real form may be tiny but my energy is very large thus my human body struggles to contain it.

I have two names, my real name and the name in which my protecter and mate gave to me when he found me badly injured and fatally ill.
Nicollet (it means victory, since I somehow by the grace of the Gods survived)
And Aria (which means beautiful .__. Still don't see how that applies to me.)

And my last name Padma means goddess~

I am extreamly in tuned with nature and all forms of life, and I hold them higher then anything else in life. I could never bring myself to kill and find that many of my abilities involve mirrors (of the magical kind obveously) and nature itself.

(And its fine, I understand I will have to be getting back to school and work too here soon enough)
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Cinder254 Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2013  Student General Artist
     I definitely can relate to you on how beautiful nature is and I have adopted pacifism after watching the humans, and being a dragon nature is an extension of myself as well, I can hear earth cry out in pain, but also rejoice at the sight of just ways being practiced. I am more in tune with plants and the earth itself, rather than many of the domesticated animals but if they are wild I too can be in tune much of the time.

     As for my story haha, I was what you can call the "test lab child" Born in front of a group known as the balance council. Half rejoiced at the sight of this "artificial being" (I am still very organic) while the others cried "Heretic!" at the sight of my unnatural being. This council focuses on, well keeping the balance, and there is two ways to do so...

1. Teach the life that is unbalance in the ways of maintaining balance, and good health.

2. Destroy the unbalance at its base.  

     The ones who handle the first are the diplomats who teach, and are known as "Life, the Bringers of Order," While the second on the other hand are everlastingly hungry beings called world eaters, and are known as "Death the Destroyer of Worlds."

     I was watched and the council couldn't decide, but the outer ring (The less wise ones) deemed me World Eater... and I did as I was told, and became a monster, but it was also in my nature. They miscalculated though, unlike the world eaters I had a conscience, and it teared my mind apart. I became a cold being who shut done his emotion. Since this was true I was kept in the world eaters chamber, never touched, out of pure fear for I was stronger than most of the world eaters combined due to my special prowess in magic. Soon the one who was there at my "birth" and hoped for me to become Life, the Bringer of Order had come, and he was part of the inner ring council (The ones who knew what they were doing) He was convinced I wasn't a monster and took me in for training.

     And so I trained with this being, who was also a dragon named Zanix. He taught me the truth in peace, and I learned to understand it, still remaining cold. Soon I noticed my inner evil was too powerful for I was made from two beings, one life, one death, and death made me hungry so I sealed him away in me ultimately making me unbalanced. Over time I fell apart, but still I hungered, so I filled my stomach with knowledge, being a dragon knowledge naturally drew me to it. I became so much I became a being of prophecy, life and death. I soon joined the inner council as the youngest member ever. I soon then took in students too. Three I believe, memories are hazy here, but the one was the best of his game, he was a prodigy, but his ambition outlasted his wisdom and led him to committing unspeakable things. I had to hunt him. I had to destroy what I had created... I couldn't, and I let him go. He then stole my research and left.
 
     He experimented in sentient transmutation (an extremely painful process by combining multiple beings into one "perfect" being. I couldn't help him. (eventually i did catch him and he was put to death) I believe he also kill my other students when he tried this. I couldn't take the pain and sealed that away with my evil (named Abro). 
  
     Soon enough I lost it and I wanted to find my true father, and I followed a trail to see that only God could have, so I used my eyes (I had the strongest eyes in all of the multiverse, which is what gave me the edge on everything, I could look at a man and they could die, be healed, enslaved, or possessed.) to look see him, but was blinded in one eye. Frantic to get it back I brought someone in as my dragonrider, so they could get my power, but I stole their eyes in the process. The council looked at their creation in anger and forced me to not just learn about my new diplomatic mission, but to learn from it as a punishment so they put me in a human body to learn of true wisdom (this is where the story gets happy) On earth I met many people who taught me of myself, and I released my inner evil becoming complete with it (its like crying when you held in sad emotions for many years) I learned to love me and everyone, I learned the meaning of life. I learned more of the arts, I learned who I am, and want to be... good :D though I was called satanist and bullied for my ideas, by many of the Christians, so I developed a hate relationship with God, not just a "I don't believe him" but a "I know the guy, but I HATE him," soon eough I met my best friend and he helped me redevelop a communication with him, and in the end I fell to my knees crying (again) learning to love God again. 

     I finally am complete from centuries of work, I learned more about myself here in 16 years, than I did in who knows how long out there. I ultimately am so happy :D I Love life and everyone, and plan on becoming what Zanix wanted me to become, a healer, a hero, a good man. Here I am here seeking a way to make up for what I have done, here I am seeking others like me to help them accept themselves, here I am to teach humanity of...

Balance.


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KittyWolfInc Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Well, I'm not Just a kittywolf I am something else as well (I can't say here where everyone could see) ><

So do you have a Skype where we may continue this conversation in private?
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camaxtly Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013
bro no its just you have social anxiety thats it
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:iconblacknoxstar:
BlackNoxStar Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Student Digital Artist
One day someone will come who will push past your walls and meet YOU and you'll meet them and they'll be your closest friend, your confidante and your soulmate, whether it's love or just friendship you'll be together for life. 

You'll understand each other perfectly, and trust me, things will never be BORING again.
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da5thmarauder Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2013  Student Writer
I feel the exact sme way. Like there's another world out ther that..... is meant for me. That this world is just so ugly and bare.

i feel like a world with a meaning. I can have a mening in that world but here I'm...

Nothing.
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:iconhoneyhorse11:
HoneyHorse11 Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Get a hobby please 
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:iconblacknoxstar:
BlackNoxStar Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Fuck off please
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:iconhoneyhorse11:
HoneyHorse11 Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
"If you have nothing nice to say, say nothing at all."
-You 

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:iconblacknoxstar:
BlackNoxStar Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Yes but why would I show you that curtesy when you don't?

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:iconhoneyhorse11:
HoneyHorse11 Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
My comment has nothing to do with you.  You should mind your own business and stop looking for fights.  My opinion is that this secret is a first world problem and the teller could really use to find a hobby to be passionate about.  Now, would you please fuck off?  I mean, you did approach me first, after all. 
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:iconblacknoxstar:
BlackNoxStar Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Once your comment is posted it has everything to do with whomever reads it.

What if the secret teller read that rude, unthinking inconsiderate comment? How do you think they'd feel?

Not too happy, I'd imagine. You might upset them, or someone else.

But, really, it's not as if you give a shit about anyone but yourself and getting attention, otherwise you wouldn't have even commented.
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HoneyHorse11 Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
-w-;; Sure.  Keep telling yourself that.

If they were so sensitive to comments, they should have requested that the comments be disabled.  It's not rocket science.

But I'm sorry to say you're getting really goddamn annoying now, so goodbye, have a nice life.  
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shootingart Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You're not the only one who feels this way. Maybe you can convince people to let you out into the ocean or something (I need to get better at putting my thoughts into words...). In other words, swim to the horizon, or something like that. Fish  Ugh, I still can't get it right! Stupid Me!  
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:iconbenjamin-biddix:
Benjamin-Biddix Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
White girl problems. :no:

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:iconblacknoxstar:
BlackNoxStar Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Student Digital Artist
If you have nothing nice to say, say nothing at all.
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:iconmasymaru:
MasyMaru Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2013
Why be racist?
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xXNibiNoNekoXx Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2013
There are 7 billion people on our planet, its pretty much impossible for nobody to be able to understand or love you. Just keep looking for the right people and don't be afraid to leave those behind that aren't healthy for you. Keep your chin up dear, it gets better. <3
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TigerGirl-Tiggy620 Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2013  Student General Artist
Go read a book or something...teenagers these days...
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:iconblacknoxstar:
BlackNoxStar Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Student Digital Artist
If you have nothing nice to say, say nothing at all.
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TigerGirl-Tiggy620 Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Student General Artist
RRiiigghhttttttt...
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:iconblacknoxstar:
BlackNoxStar Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Student Digital Artist
"Do unto others as you would have them do unto you."

If you treat others that way, eventually they'll treat you like that in return.

But if you treat people badly, they'll treat you badly too.
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Toms221 Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2013
And so what? If teenagers are like that now and why does it happen? ... everyone have theyr problems,we all are different so dont say it that easy about all teenagers! I am like that persone too who is clumsy in public ... so dont be that happy about other fails or bad lifes!
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TigerGirl-Tiggy620 Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2013  Student General Artist
Oh please, she is fine, she even calls her life "boring". First world problems, enough said. Teens these days need to toughen up.
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Toms221 Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013
Well not all but still maybe it is as you say. No one knows which one will be true but still problems are everwhere and we are here to help and maybe solve it. =] 
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Nekovix Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I really do know what you mean. Most days, I just feel like going :iconfuckyoubyeplz: to reality...
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:iconcrevi:
crevi Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Haha, brilliant! :blowkiss:
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:icondartharc:
dartharc Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013
I know what you mean. I often imagine myself in different fantasy worlds, or one mixture of different ones.
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:icondiamond-blitz:
Diamond-Blitz Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I think this happens when you're a teenager... So yea ;___; I feel the same way xD
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:iconsomethingrimm:
SomethinGrimm Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013
been there, trust me it will eventually get to the point of not so boring.
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:iconochaonomu:
ochaonomu Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013
Yeah... definitely get it.
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themusicman314159 Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I know the feeling
Of everything not real
Like that paper ceiling
Or even a tasty meal

That we are but beings
Bound to a small space
That all we are seeing
Exists but within our head's case

This life is but a stage
And us happy actors we
Must live out the play
Until our scene's end be.
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:iconhackedranger:
HackedRanger Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013
Am I the only one who read her 'N's as 'M's?
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:iconwlftoboe:
WlfToboe Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013
I read it that way as well.
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:icongravitii-cs:
Gravitii-CS Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013
I couldn't read it lol XD
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EnthusiasticArtist Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013  Student Writer
yep reminds me of me as well
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Katamata1 Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013
That`s me xD
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:iconpurestrongpoem:
Purestrongpoem Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Me too.
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:iconxdianna:
xDianna Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Ugh really reminds of my schooldays, I was the nerd AND the dumb blond.
But with every bad side there always will be a good side (what you should focus on or search for) and if you feel bored search for something that is not.
Go paintballing, painting, search crickets or start your own garden (whatever your into) you don't need to be a socialite, cause I've never been and never will be, but still I'm fine ^^
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Renestrae Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This reminds me of myself quite a bit. I hope you find the friends you need.
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SkittleE275 Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013
From what I've been told, what you're experiencing is called being a teenager. Have fun with that.
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