night timeTerrified by the nightmares promised to walk my mind.
The darkness comes, i close my eyes and this is what i find.
I wake from these phantoms my eyes filled with tears.
Locked away past memories the worst of my fears.
Im all alone, theres no one here.
No one to calm me and hold me near.
I lay alone shaking, to scared to sleep.
I fear the memories that go to deep.
Terrible moments relived at night.
Death and pain a horrifying sight.
I will never escape them, or so it seems.
Only time will stop these dreams.
But not for long.
Babysitting Is A Stupid ThingYou don't like your brother. You love him, but at the same time you don't. There were lots of things you didn't like about him. Tons. You could go on and on for a while, listing all the things about your brother that made your nose wrinkle and your fists clench. Like, you hate how he tends to leave home. A lot. You hate how he sometimes forgets that you hate pickles when he's ordering your happy meal from McDonalds. You even hate how when you walk into the same room as him with your arms wrapped around Cal, and he flinches like your little friend is about to strike him down. But there's one thing that gets you the most. One little thing that makes you want to punch him where the sun don't shine.
He thinks you need a babysitter.
You were seven, okay? Seven. You were perfectly capable of taking care of yourself. You knew when to wake up, how to make suitable food, how to use the bathroom, when to go to bed. Not too long ago, you realized that you were finally tall enough to reach the mic
Not Purrfectly FineNot Purrfectly Fine
Nepeta awoke shrouded in darkness. Where was everyone? She stopped and looked around. She was alone. "Hello?" She called out. "Equius?" Only silence followed. Where was she? She started walking around the dark place. Where was everyone? Where was Equius?
She scrunched up her face trying to recall.
Equius had been feeling blue about what happened with his matesprit.
"We can always curl up in the pile again to talk about feelings." She offered with a soft smile.
"Nepeta for goodness sakes, a man can only discuss feelings for so much time." He complained.
He was always doing that. But Nepeta knew he was still upset.
"B100. B100. B100. I just love how you say that word!" She smiled at him.
"I know." He smiled back pulling on his hair shyly.
What happened after that? Oh right. Vwriskers and Mr. Ampurra even Gamzee they'd all gone nuts. Equius was going to look for Gamzee.
"Not everyone has been as lucky as I in the moirallgence department." He said seriously.
"I udder to
Resting Up and Suggestions?Stressed Out
Sorry I haven't been around much lately. I think I need time away from the internet. Both to relax and to brush up on my artwork. I am genuinely sick of all the hate surrounding my namesake online, and when I say "genuinely," I mean it. The stress that the recent resurgence of trolling I've gotten has caused me to be quite ill. I know I shouldn't let what anonymous people on the internet say about me get to me, but it does. I need time to recuperate, to spruce and fix up SYAC, and to get back to a point where I genuinely enjoy drawing again. Right now there's no love or passion in my artwork, and it's mostly because of my defeated attitude: "Why bother, they'll just tear it apart anyway."
That whole "project positive" has been a complete bust too. I failed to live up to the idea, and in the process got really sick. I guess trying to force out a constant positive attitude like that was a mistake.
Still working, plus a surprise!
In the meantime, I have still be
To the victims of bullying!In this world
of sorrow and pain
Is a generation
Through hurting they gain
All the esteem
they will ever need
and the warnings from others
they never heed
The victims of bullying
Behind a mask
showing only eyes
They hide the emotions
and bottle inside
and never let
there anger unwind
They follow of the path
of unfortunate deaths
and leave them selves
without a breath
They a take a path
chosen by many
the path is short
and seems to be plenty
But there is
where happiness is made
and so are laughs
This road is
chosen by few
as it is longer
and starts a new life for many
thought it is not
known by all
as its desecrated
blocked by a wall
it does exist
and is hard to see
but travel through fog
and you'll be free
so when you get bullied
look at yourself
are you really just
another toy on the shelf?
Beauty is inner
and not just outside
You are beautiful
there is no need to hide
Bullies are walls
that will always block
what ever's ahead
like a huge rock
DepressionOn with the sadness
And gloom, and despair, and rage
Rage no-one can hear
Screaming at them from the walls,
The kitchen tools
What are we going to do?
She seems so sad
Something at school?
Her friends, maybe, a boy?
Maybe she's just being a teenager.
She listens at the door, to these murmurs of doubt
And quietly creeps back to bed
She lies there in bed and stares
Up at the ceiling, plastered with softly glowing plastic stars
Wondering if they'll ever know,
Ever realize, everything she feels and screams silently
A girl, just a girl, sobbing to herself late at night
She takes that ugly, gleaming blade
Hands trembling, heart crying
She points it towards her chest
Silence the heart, can't stand it howling!
Stop it, make it shut up!
Just shut up!
She can't do it, drops the knife, goes back to bed to weep.
Fairy HuntingFairy Hunting
Tavros, feeling rather excited by his new ability to walk, thanks to his new robot legs, decided to go try to find some fairies. Putting on his Pupa Pan outfit he snuck out when no one was around and transportlizes himself to some sort of strange island in the middle of nowhere. Nepeta happened to be walking by at the time and chanced to see Tavros transportlize himself. "I wonder where Tavros is going?" She tilted her head to the side curiously. "He pawsibly wouldn't mind if I stalked him a little." She smiled to herself. Stealthily the troll snuck up and followed him. "Wow uh this is a really big island." Tavros said to himself taking in the lush greenery. He sneezed suddenly. "Uh my allergies are acting up." He said to himself shaking his head and sniffling a little. Nepeta couldn't help but let out a small giggle as she followed Tavros. "Uh,,,,, Hello?" Tavros questioned looking around. "Boo!" Nepeta shouted pouncing on Tavros from behind a bush and nearly knocking hi
depressionThe world seems blurry and i cant clearly see.
I dont feel right, i dont feel like me.
The days have been gliding past nothings changed.
But somehow it doesnt feel right, it feels so strange.
My minds gone blank and i cant think straight.
Theres a heavy fog in me that nothing can penitrate.
A smile on my face that doesnt quite touch my eyes.
Its as if my happy world has been compromised.
Hard to breath as depression has begun to unfold.
All of my joy in life has been put on hold.
though its not as if this hasnt happened before.
With me and depression its an on going war.
There is no anger, there is no pain.
You wont see any tears begin to rain.
Theres an emptyness inside, ive just gone numb.
Im waiting in the darkness for the light to come.